Together, We Shine

You can't cheer

When you passed a stage and the other didn't

When your teammate left a game and you still continue

It just like people giving you a stomp on your backbone

You may look fine but suffer internal injuries

What have done is done

What I am trying now is to counter some situations

To get those 5 who have been left out to get in

My appeal might be successful or may just be another false alarm, empty hope

I have the responsibility to protect and fight for the best on behalf of my men

They have worked and contributed so much

And I think it's fair enough if I could do something in return

Even if all my efforts varnished into thin air

But at least I tried

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"Together, We Shine"

Once Upon A Time

Once

How eager was I to escape

After dream, after bustling metropolis

And now sitting down and think back

How fast has it been?

How far did I go?

Just the egotism that you want people to know that you are overseas

It is the saying that moon is rounder outside

Just what people think, and how you react

The best is still where you heart is

Where it all started, and where the full stop will be marked

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It was 3.30am in the morning

Too many things, too little time

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Life's too short to be everything

Everyday I wake up and when I look into the mirror brushing my teeth

I will remind myself

"What if today were my last day, how will I utilise it?"

I had read this sentence everywhere

But not until I lost something in life

I have came to comprehend the implicit underlying meaning

It is how you want to maximise out of the box, out of your limitation

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Be thankful, be grateful, be lovely

Do it while you are able to

Time doesn't wait

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Don't tear when you watch this video

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

孩子，爸牵你的手吧！

天空

尽是一片乌云

雨水

狠狠地往下泻

路人

狼狈地撑着伞

余晖

是那么的朦胧

是那么的隐约

是那么的脆弱

是那么的暗淡

是那么的凄凉

雷声

轰动了全城

闹醒了睡婴

翻动了草原

掀起了恐慌

孩子

请你别慌

请你别怕

请你相信

无论何时何处

爸

从未放弃过

爸

会执子之手

携着你一起

期待那雨后

下一道彩虹

*was notified by Leon via Facebook from Perth about an hour ago asking me to proofread this particular Chinese poem he wrote during lecture. It seems to be a nice poem and I wish to share with all my bloggers and readers. Simple yet meaningful.

The code 234

It was a meeting initially drafted to discuss about the camp's committee

But right after the deputy left you started to change topic

You start asking about my family background, secondary life etc

You also told me about your family too

I was in real astonishment that you actually observe me all these while!

Asking my family background to further affirm your earlier statement

You were like giving prophecy

Or perhaps you actually read my mind

You go into every single line of the proposal in details

Which I must admit that I learned so much more today than what I was in secondary

Concerning how to ready a good proposal

This is the ever first time I feel you

like how some of my secondary teachers treat me as their child

That they really care about you

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"I foresee your leadership during the prize giving ceremony,

you actually can lead and firm at your place but you talk too soft.

You should appear to be firmer in your tone to let more people listen to you.

Don't you feel that some people actually think why should a soft talking guy

outstand them to become their leader. They are actually unhappy.

It should appear alright in the future when you step in the society where

I believe you are capable of becoming manager or leading a board.

But during the time in school, you must remember that those who can speak loud win

*she slammed the table and trying to act like big boss - she was trying to demonstrate me how to talk louder and firmer*

You are lack of "wind" in talking.

If you do observe closely, I actually speak differently to you all and with my colleagues.

Anyway, in your family, are you the eldest or youngest?

*then continue with my family story*"

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I should say that I really appreciate the way you try to pull me and polish me up

You keep involving me in most of the core planning events in the school

Which usually a DPE student wasn't given a chance to do so

You expose me to a wider opportunity like the recent

Brainstorming session for Open House 2012

Students usually don't get to participate in the planning of the event

But only in the running of this event

But I am honoured to get involved this time

And you let me represent the MF students during Open House 2012

What a fame!

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One day

I shall proof you that

"Nothing is impossible"

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p/s: You should be proud of yourself that even you wasn't in the top 2. But she loves you so much. She told me that she wants to polish you up especially the part where you shy to voice up your opinion. Even she never mention the reason why she dragged you down despite the higher vote cast you obtained. I believe this is her effort trying to keep the balance in between two programmes where fair equality is seek among the representatives from both side. She is trying her best not to upset any of them and to be tipped it as a biased move. She thinks far and has prudent vision.

Snoopy and Woodstock

Most consuming preparation I ever made

In means of time, energy and money

I wonder why your surname is not mine or vice versa

Our Beloved Country - Malaysia.

Which part of this upholds the peace and stability of our country?

The doused woman or her obvious misery because of Malaysia today?

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The principle is simple

We demand a peaceful walk towards the iconic Stadium Merdeka

In the dress of yellow which symbolize "Bersih" (clean)

Covering a wide scope of area including

a more transparent electoral board

a less corrupted government

a fair politic

all for an aim

To achieve a better tomorrow for Malaysia

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But let's see what has turned up to be?

Cops set up roadblocks to halter public from entering the capital

causing crackdown of Kuala Lumpur

Up next, tear gas and water cannon to disperse the crowd

Which the cops claimed them to endanger the national public security

and accusing them for affecting the central business district

But now you stupid fuck asshole police go and set up roadblocks

Blocking all sort of people from entering the downtown

Now who is the culprit causing the trouble?

Bersih keeps on emphasising that they demand a peaceful walk but not a riot

But you police (puppet of BN) is fear of the 8 propaganda which the Bersih has declared

If you could stand firm in front of these accusation

Why would you even need to waste the national asset

(which belongs to every Malaysian)

To summon thousands of police to set up barrier across the capital

Where I thought police was supposed to fight criminals

Are the patriots robbers, rapists, traffickers?

The most inhuman part is when you bitchy cops even attacked hospital!

What the fuck?!

Did you even think before you act?

Imagine what if some of the patients inside died because of your naive move?

Well, it actually happened

Allahyarham Baharuddin, a patriot who died during the rally

He is believed to be chased by police which caused an asthma attack that took away his life

So what now?

Are you police going to take up the responsibility?

Or will the case be closed and hid into

the "Malaysia book of dark" like the Antatuya and Teoh Beng Hock case?

Shame on you, not Malaysia but the Barisan Nasional

Even after you lost 2/3 majority during the 308 political tsunami

You never learn

By trying dirty tricks and manipulating the electoral board

You thought you still can fool the people?

Despite the heavily preached "1 Malaysia" by Najib

We never see us an united Malaysia until the rally earlier this afternoon

All Malaysians regardless of race, religion and background come as one

To defend democracy and to reject the corrupted government

BN response which refused to reflect themselves and the tactic

To counter attack the armless people has further geared up the anger

Today is the beginning of a new chapter

Najib be the next Mubarak

Is not that you're not good

But I believe the national's progress should not be haltered by someone incompetent

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Sincerely,

I love Malaysia

Common Test Was Over

Tests were like finally over

Yelled and yeah

I supposed hard works did paid

Imagine how many days had I sacrficed in Kuching

Spending in study room digesting all the formula and jargons

And missing out those times going out with people

Especially with Pigtail

We didn't get to eat "fire" this time round

This was pretty sad

I knew at the same time you were busy with your QS assignments

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I went clubbing

I slept for 12 hours

My pc couldn't startup

I reformatted it

I watch Transformers 3

I restoring from backups (still doing now)

Managing my 27GB iTunes playlist (seriously not an easy job nor a joke)

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Strolling in this corner that resembles mine hundred miles away

When darkness blinds out every single pair of eyes

In the burst of light where the pair of pearl white wings reflects

Merely a glimpse of the magical wand giving a false hope of angel occurrence

When shivering cold turns warmth

In desperation you smell love

Hope has been built up

Sadness shall be forgotten

Close your eyes and fall backwards

Feel the nature of air and temper of gravity

When no one holds your arm

There is a belief that backs you up

Heart is the answer to all doubts

Not an ordinary one but earnestness counts

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L-O-V-E

It is always so easier to spell

I Am

A Bastard

For goodness sake

I think I am screwed today

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Days weren't good. I always thought that I could be better in the sense of presenting myself. Too much negative happenings clouding around and I am trying to break through. But life sucks. I am so fucking exhausted now and my bloody eye bags are heavy but I still have tonnes of work to do. I didn't know what exactly happened today. Jeremy was sleeping all the way during the lecture and I fell in the same trap too, but not that long. Early tutorials were fine except the bald stick trying to mock the Singaporeans for not being able to solve his 3 "brilliant" Maths questions. He loves to make fun of both Malaysians and Singaporeans, each taking a turn for every week. Alif even says in twitter that he only favours China English. What a joke. MFD 3D modelling was just per normal. Everyone is rushing over their work. 6 hours from afternoon onwards at lab trying to complete everything, it seems to fail again. So don't you think me a bastard.

Because I am bastard, doesn't mean you are not.

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Miscellaneous

Mum rang up because I wasn't on Skype

Talked about happening back in Kuching

Toa Payoh auntie and my uncle and his family from Xia Men China come to our house

So currently my house has 8 guests

That's a lot man

Mum saying that my cousins are sleeping in my room

I hope they don't mess up my book shelf

Especially my beautiful collection of Lord of the Ring!

But I guess they don't really read English

I hope my books are safe by then

(I have a habit of not liking people to mess around with my books)

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Dad kind of feeling sorry for not celebrating birthday together with me

I am practically alright and I did enjoy my birthday here so don't worry

Dad says he is going to bring me for a meal for belated celebration once I am back

I am craving for Hilton buffet

Probably I will get it =)

And he insisted to gift me the red Dell as birthday present

(it's red again)

I can't help it

Steve Jobs should bear the fault for not releasing Lion OS X early

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Just asked uncle to wire me some quick cash

It is quite troublesome when I actually don't have a Maybank account here

It is really difficult for me to do transaction

And play around with money =(

Uncle says inflation rate soars high

Asking me to compensate some of auntie's grocery expenditure

Perfectly fine with it and is currently reflecting the matter to daddy

I wish he gives me more pocket money

I am saving for ... a *secret*

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Jack looks like a pineapple with hair band on

Jack is thinking that he might need a hair cut

Jack miss his hairstylist Jimmy so much

Jack is also wondering how's his bitch and Peugeot in Kuching

Jack really miss you

Asylum Seekers

An unforgettable thunderstorm last night. We had a severe shipwreck and is still now hovering in the lifeboat in the middle of sea, in the midst of nowhere. It was closed, no one ever expected last night tragedy and thought of survived it. Never came into such scenario, a cold shivering moment worse than any nightmare we ever had. Forcing the adrenaline to pump sufficiently for us to continue paddling, keeping fingers crossed, we need God's salvation.

24 hours. Still, no ray of hope.

48 hours later, cannibalistic humanity reveals in action. Three of them, they need to survive, food is the basic demand to keep the breath continue. Left with food barely enough for three, it is time for a fair match between contradiction, conscience and survival. Did I mention the three are indirect brotherhood-chain, they are friends more than just friends.

One is starving now, one is holding last bite of food, one with the last pack for him to survive tomorrow breakfast. Everybody tends to stop talking. The night is cold, thick mist reduces visibility, can hardly see each other even on the meters length lifeboat. Ambiance is tensed, as time tickles, everyone is speculating over each other, doubting who are willing to share the food, even the amount is only sufficient to neutralise the acidic gastric juice acting on the stomach wall, but not filling it full. The one running out of food whispering in thin air, air particles merely vibrate as the chillness has frozen our lips, making it hard to make a sound, even a whisper. The one with most food heard it, but he has a line in his mind "the easiest way to lose a friend when doing sacrificing". He crouches at one corner, cuddles himself like a swirling snake, pretending to be cold and heard nothing. The one with last piece of food walking from the other end, with much care, afraid of the sudden strong wave that may hit the boat anytime, no one wants to drop into the sea and get drown. Finally he saw the starving friend. He kneels down and gives him a deep hug, only by this they will get a little bit more warmth. It is beyond the point of famine, feeling the gastric juice trying to corrode the stomach and making it way down to the digestive track, causing an inflame sensation towards the connecting nerves. No, you can never feel, the well-fed can never understand how the starving suffer. The bone chilling mist and sea breeze is making it worse. It is even harder to make a mumble now. Come close to the right ear, the merely die guy trying to make a sound into the dense mist "hungry". Despite the starvation, his friend took out the last piece of bacon, tears it into two, a bigger piece for him, a smaller for himself. His friend has this line in mind "At extreme, there is one thing more important than just keeping yourself alive, it's the faith you have in your friend".

After the last bite, they both are replenished with some energy for them to keep their vision wide and mind clear. No one has a clock to see how long time had passed, they forgot when they started to fall asleep.

Even if they never wake up anymore, at least they see the true value of what a friend should equipped with. If they are rescued, invincible link is further strengthen along the brotherhood-chain. No one knows what happened to the other one. Even if he survived with his own fair amount of food, he gained few more days to see the breaking dawn, but he has forgotten that he lost the most valuable, priceless treasure on earth - Faith.

And now, the three asylum seekers seek their refuge from God's salvation. Doing self-proclaimed as the best three on earth, but no one ever wants to mention about the story again.

The Red Day

I received 50 greetings at Facebook as at 12.48am

I reply every each of them

Literally I receive more than one greeting every minute

And is still counting

I got 7 sms

4 from Malaysia and 3 from Singapore

2 tweets from my fellow tweet peeps

This is only the first hour of the day

And I have received so much blessings

Really love me ya you all

I love you as much as you all do

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My awesome cake with the awesome candle

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The cards

So much of love

<3

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A Nike, A Jezz, A Converse

My presents are all red!

A coincidence?

My lucky colour now

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I went to shisha with class at Haji Lane!

My first time in Singapore!

Awesome

I really like the connection Shirley has down there!

Ahmad, don't sad

Let's shisha once more when you turned legal!

Rachel you rocks!

Jeremy and Andrew the professional shisha-er

Angel still the laid back piggie style

JJ and YYC a good try!

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JJ, If I didn't guess wrongly

I think you actually prepared my birthday present

One month prior to the actual date

You really made me very touched!

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Today I received my red case for my iPhone too

It is a red day

A lucky one

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Not everyone can read my address to my fellow classmates

As it is a closed group

I want to share with the world how awesome

My life is in Singapore

and how great my friends are

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A Note for the clas DP1006

Thanks Mr Zander Nyp for making your way down to South Canteen to celebrate mai birthday!!

Thanks Andrew Chee and Jeremy Ho, I know you two must be two core planners behind today awesome event. Bravo Braders!

Thanks Angel Ang for bringing so much laughters today, I wish you will lose some weight preparing my cake. If it is true, I wish everyday is my birthday.

Thanks J.j. Hayashi now I know why you asked me England or Germany on 1st April. I have this text fresh in my memory because I replied your text when I was driving and I almost bang the car in front. I hope I made a right guess.

Thanks ZhongLin Ooi for your great wishes! I received both your text and facebook greetings. I really appreciate both the presie and card. XD

Thanks @Shirley Kew for the shisha! I never know you are such a kick at Haji Lane and it was like u own the street! Let's hang out again!

Thanks @Ahmad Alif and @Rachel Ho for joining us tonight! It is quite rare to get you two hang out with the class but today you two did! It was a scarce moment when we get to cheers at night and I hope we all can go outing as a whole more often!

Thanks @Khairi Azmie and @Weishin Kho for making your time to join us for dinner at PastaMania! XD

Thanks @Ng Cheong Hong, @Yun Chiong, @Phoebe Ho and @Yeoh Yong Chen for the birthday cards, presents and cake! I really appreciate all your preparations and making this evening a memorable one.

Last but not least, thanks @Joel Javian Khoo, @Benjamin Justin Lau, @Hui Xin Zhang and @Shihai Mao for singing the birthday songs and cheers together =)

I had a great birthday celebration last year, today is a greater one.

Thanks all.

I love DP1006.

Tan Yee

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p/s: Every year, my birthday always makes the class bonding stronger. This year, we have Alif and Rachel joining the line. =)

Get It Over. Please.

I recall the incident

And I tear again

Can I use a wand to wash it away from my memory?

安静

我努力地控制着情绪

不要做出抽搐的声音

但还是哭了出来

但我很快就按耐着了自己的情绪

也不过离开了一个月

却发生了这么多事

我看着你做出一件又一件现实冷血的事情

却有心无力

外公留下来的家产

是属于大家的

当你把所有人都逼走时

你独吞了整块蛋糕

你不怕哽死

我都为你感到羞耻

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钱是没有生命的

但血缘是感情的泉源

那几十万，几百万的钞票

再多也无法填满你贪心的无底洞

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“本是同根生，

相煎何太急”

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我们童年的那一段回忆

或许只剩下那破碎的残片

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电话放下后

我始终没有那么坚强

The Pain

It's my fault to write the 5.00pm post

Stress has lost my rationale

Thanks to her for the text

I will clarify the cloudy doubt

And I was not intended to hurt

You made the right move

I believe I do too

Concentration

Sometimes I reckon

Concentrate on one is better than two or more

Focus attention on the one you favour

And shine it

But not allowing the emittance to dissipate

I went there is solely for fun

Spare me really

I answered frankly

But that was me few years back

Not representing the one today

I emphasis again

I long for fun only

Stress-free is what I concern

And my reason for this evening

Great Minds Think Alike

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There is a main reason behind why am I writing this tonight. A long story that I could hardly cut short and summarise it, but I believe I digested the essence. No, I should say I am digesting, the essence is so superb that I cannot digest all at once.

Black and white. The most significant way to distinct among dark and bright, bad and good since the day we know how to tell right and wrong. Superficially, we appoint people who cannot afford to perform what we usually known as civil act and doing stuff in an opposing way against the law are always known as the black ones or the evil. Those who stand at the bright side are known to be the symbol of justice, an icon for peace. It is true only, as I said superficially.

I have learnt that those who are at the top are mostly hypocrites. They just do what they think will benefit him for to ensure his fame and probably to higher the chance to get promotion. Outsiders see him brilliant, but I see him like a Super Mario who only knows how to jump, hit the brick and eat the mushroom. Life, we should not live it in such a pathetic way.

Of course there is a lot of stories behind how she inspired me. For what her role now is not only to make sure the students pass her module. She risked her job at times just to represent the students making sure that fairness never vanish into thin air. Extra sacrificing does not really matter a lot, but the outcome does. I see the figure of my high school CCAs uniform body teacher advisor behind her. She built the uniform body up, laid the firm foundation for us. The fact that we were awarded the title "The Best Youth Unit" for consecutive 11 years in Sarawak is a strong proof that no one in school can deny. Today, I continue to see the spirit lives on even I am no longer staying in the same school and same club.

For who she is, that makes who I am today. It is not what we get in return matters. The real thing is we need to work together and to stay as a whole. Nothing is halter from being success if team work and cooperation come in pair. I am willing to render my commitment to what she needs for the benefit of all. Think twice and have a prudent vision. We need daring people to guide along so we can make our victory not a dream.

I appreciate and I will do my best

"Together, we shine"

Virtual Distance。虚拟的距离

I watching you walked away silently

我看着你静静的离开

Standing at one corner

站在角落的我

I see how the world evolves and how people tend to be more mature

我看着世界在进化，看着更成熟的你

Time passed and that was yesterday

时间流逝了，已成了历史

Missing the time before

怀念着从前

I give you my best blessings

我给予你最真诚的祝福

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=)

*smile*

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I miss you sooo much

We didn't skype for few days edy

May God Bless You

I have a friend

Whom I don't really know him well

He left Kuching High School when we were Form 3

He is now a New Zealander

Living in Christchurch

Because of twitter

We started to get in touch

We are like cyber brothers now

We chat over twitter

He got into some nasty troubles recently

He broke up

Depressed

He drive to drink

Ended up drink driving

Got caught

His license got suspended

Gotta send to court

Fined for 1k NZD

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"Life's fucked when we don't wanna it to be. Do we even have a choice?"

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Dude, I hope you're alright

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I am meeting Kiki probably by this week

Can't wait to see her after Chinese New Year

Her iconic style is what I am amazed of

Just wanna give her a deep cuddle

A warm greeting amongst us which I find it nowhere

距离

不是三言两语就说得过去

距离毕竟还是还是有差别

近至步行就可以接上

远至要搭上飞机

更可能需要调整时差

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你说没有感觉了

麻痹了

你欺骗得了所有的人

但瞒不过我

我看你眼睛说话

不是听你嘴角在摩擦

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无奈是难免的

十三年还是五年

都不是很短的一段时间

时间每一分每一秒流逝

人生每一步每一步在前进

即使你已在逆着走

我都看到了

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我曾经想过放弃

挣扎的那一段日子

是不容易的煎熬

最后

我还是选择看开

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人生苦短

何必强求

很多事情都不是在我们所能决定的范围里

模糊中

我看见你那略撩起的嘴角

已是我最大的安慰

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宁静的日子

在过不久就结束了

原本想退隐的我

在强势所逼

需要披上战袍

虽然带着不愿意

但为了不让你弹枪匹马

为了大家的好

我可以做出必要的牺牲

只希望大家可以有更好的明天

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每一次听《当冬夜渐暖》

都有想哭的冲动

I Can Feel

Quake hit Myanmar and Thai last night

I started to fear

The day where world ends

And so

I cherish people around me more

I love all of you

<3