Friday, May 15, 2009

A Melancholy Journal

I do not know what is actually happening on me. Today I kicked start with my 1st term exam with the Chemistry paper 1. I am actually well prepared for it, at least I think so. But when the time comes, my mind was in a blank. And no doubt, I had done a lot of silly mistakes.

Well, I can say I lost my self lately. I can hardly remember on what I have studied and come to the worst is I cannot even solve a simple question involving simplified mathematics calculations. Though I might be working hard this time, I might not score. I understand my situation well.

Was the sentence that I heard on the Mother's Day eve that curls up all my train of thought? Most probably this might be the main reason. Everyone has a limit towards an extreme misery, so am I. I think, I just need a good rest and have to find someone whom I can trust with to talk to. It is actually exam time now and I do not wish to interrupt any of my friends. So I might keep this for the next two weeks. I hope I can hold myself back and do not collapse.

Hedonism lost its colours in life
And is replaced by black and white
The blithe spirit lost its sight
And no longer be seen
Fervour towards laughter is curtailed
Melancholic melody is once be played
To take over your sunny aspect
And gaiety of spirit

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