Just woke up from a short nap from this evening, it wasn't because I had enough sleep, I had a nightmare which woke me up. Recently I am prompted by lots of self discovering which lead me to another stage of thinking and hopefully a better mindset giving me a more versatile view as a whole. Firstly, I was trying hard to escape from this place where I crowned it a place full of cannibals interested to hunt down my flesh, in this context, a tremendous mind fucking session. For God sake, I took it as a challenge to groom me better, it did render me to have a different prospect towards life. When I escaped back to Kuching for vacation for about a month, I learnt much too. Be it the business tactic from daddy, and tutoring experience to fill up my leisure time, they all did quite a big job to let me temporarily forget about the pain I have been suffering. Just a week ago, I flew back here thinking everything has finally came to a full stop. It doesn't seems so, the authority who holds power is playing around with the game of nationality which put me in real despair. C'mon, I can understand how Malaysia being racist and bias in policy which most of the time (or every time) benefits only the indigenous group. I thought Singapore being a first world country would have a more open-thinking and a policy which benefits all as long you are willing to work, a fair term for everyone who deserves it.
So what now, you thinking if you are fit for the programme? You know yourself if you are the one deserves to go. I am just being so reckless at times wanna to flip table and write in to MOE. Somehow God hear my prayers, karma doesn't let me wait too long, MOE is now investigating the cases few years back, one day when the truth reveals and turns out to the sun, it will be the time for you to evaluate yourself. To go or not to, I have not carry much anticipation anymore, this is not my final destiny after all. I just wanna graduate with flying colours, enter a renown U, complete my degree asap, master and PhD. Right after I will gain some experience overseas before I go back home to daddy's business, but hopefully I still can setup Creaf or partner with Jimmy for some really good enterprise idea.
I don't know if the candle has burnt till the end, everyone in class seems to be less ambitious and motivated now. I might not be really good in visualizing, but staying at mould side might give me a better influence, I guess.
I miss the month before, where I can fetch you around, for food, for drinks, and for talk. Because at here, all kind of talks seems cheap, the heartfelt friends can only be met after making appointment. They are all no longer free-and-easy like last time.
Well, this is life, in a big metropolis - only the fittest survive, the rest would just be slaughtered.
I find this acoustic version really awesome.
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