Actually I am getting afraid these days as when the pressure from all aspects starts squeezing me, I think I am breathless. I just read a post on last few days newspaper, it is something about fortune-telling for all the animals according to the lunar believe. I was born in the year of monkey so I read that portion, it says "Monkey will has lots of friends this year but a few confidants". I think that's what happening on me in the real world. I can't really find a soul mate of mine throughout these years. I don't really understand whether the time is not right or this is my fate. I did had some bosom friends during my time in the lower secondary but all ended up with displeasure consequences. I don't like getting these feelings as it hurt both sides. I don't like chattering my past which is filled with blue and dullness here. I just hope that Jesus will bring me a true confidant which is a real soul partner which I can share all my thoughts and feelings with. Recently I got one friend from S5 to get into with. He is a nice guy. We are stepping closer as we always care for each other. I always mind his coughing as I don't want him to end up suffering from the same ailment as mine. I am also glad that he is always the first person to aid me when my breathing difficulties burst out besides Eleen. As for my past experience, all my friends came to me when they have some thoughtful consideration which I don't really like it. And he is not kind of that. He is always trustworthy and reliable. At least that is what appears in my mind, I guess. Time proves everything. I really hope that our friendship can brings miracle to me as I really need a confidant now.
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