NDC Aftermath

Practically tiring today, but at least I didn't miss any lesson. Even if I have to miss the MFD lecture, I don't think it bother me much because I usually sleep during that lecture. All the craps lecturers of this sem demotivate me to study. I foresee this as a threat to bear a fruitful me.

I was in total astonishment and stressed this morning the moment when I recall that I supposed to wear long pants instead of shorts at the bus stop. JJ's reminder text further wind up the already tensed nerves after I boarded the bus. Situation gained worse after I arrived the venue where it seems that I was the only one exposing my legs in the air. I was in great dismay although I didn't really show it up as I think strictly obeying instructions and rules have became very crucial in part of life to keep up with personal's discipline. This really shows how much attention I rendered during the last mass meeting and has indirectly proved that there is still a gap for perfectionism to be totally achieved although this seems impossible.

Flipping through the second page of thoughts, I seriously think that this year NDC wasn't as crowded as last year's one. As I can see, those performers on stage were actually singing and dancing mostly to entertain the committees and EXCOs as I see a wave of red and orange waving around. I don't know whether this is our part which failed to conform a good publicity. But the answer will leave unknowingly unless thorough inspection is carried out. But due to my understanding, I think it could be something to do with the common test week which most students would not be bothered by this kind of event.

Overall, I do see this event running in success. But from my point of view which I had attended the mass meeting twice and committee meeting once, leaders who supposed to make execution were overtook by some more outstanding members. A scenario where committee members could drive the decision and outcast the head. During the evaluation, some gamers reflected that there was glitch as in the lacking of manpower but I don't understand why we have around 60 the so called elites around and this problem still persist. In secondary school which the most significant event I had organised was a state level (involving the entire Sarawak) camp and at that time we only have about 32 committees with some ex-EXCOs coming back to aid us. Today's event was far more smaller in size compared to a camp as we only need to accommodate for games, prizes and performance. Neither food is prepared or served nor accommodation is needed. And I don't know whether there was first aid team on standby today, if it was I am glad, if not I assume what I reflected was just for the sake of nodding. In general, I rate this event 3.5/5 and myself 2.5/5.

p/s: I need to forget the past because anger wouldn't stay long if I stop pumping fuel to myself. As simple as a person die from starving if he is not supplied with food. You know exactly what I am thinking and I need not to reply. If you could, you should be able to scan my mind and understand what it thinks and what it makes to give you cold response. Guilt started to build up as I think I am the one making mistake.