The 4th Day

Today, 26th March 2010

Is my arrival of the 4th day in Singapore

Received a call from Nanyang Polytechnic this afternoon

The officer asked me to email a copy of my SPM transcript and IC

I received quite a number of hints from NYP already

I cannot make a full guarantee of it

But the answer in my heart is just more than accurate

Just having a meet up with Ling Tchii

I can feel the fatique deep inside him

From the pressure as an ASEAN scholar

As an A-level student

We pampered ourselves at SWENSENS

With some delightful western cuisine

(Salmon 'n' Mushromm Baked Rice)

I think the food is nice and worth me paying it

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Having light insomnia these nights

Looking outside the panes

The moon never exist in my sight for the passed three nights

It was blocked by the concrete jungle

I doubt over myself

Am I making the right decision?

Can I grab?

Even just a single breathe in the crowd?

Can I survive?

Among this group of elites originated from

Every single piece of essence on this motherland?

Can I stand?

The ailment of being homesick?

How I wish

If our cat city is quality in education system

Loneliness kills

The Judgement

Nanyang Polytechnic is too much bigger than my imagination

Having some "sweet" time losing my way in the campus

But yet I had made my way to LTS-1

Lecture Theatre S-1

The interview was much anticipating than expected

Singapore really makes me feel that

A future is possible

=)

The Rush

The plane landed literally at Senai Airport

It was few years back I last taking a transit taxi from JB to Singapore

Quite a long journey although the whole trip was only two hours

Having dilemma in making such a daring decision

It was my first time to on board alone

To experience the feel of being independent

Without a lending hand neither from family nor friend

I saw many people waiving their hands as a sign of leaving

Deep in my heart, I know I am waiving to my family

But the feeling to depart is heavy

I know I cannot cry like anyone else

I cannot give a big hug to daddy or mummy like any others do

I have grown up and is stepping into 18 very soon

During the queue up

I can feel the luggage getting heavier

Filing by more and more reluctance

But the world is realistic

If I wanna succeed, sacrifice must be made

When the plane takes off

I am looking out the windows

This lovely cat city may only become my lovely retirement paradise

After a couple of decades

But not for the time when I fight for success

Tears that I have to bear with is the most merciless part

When I feel peristalsis in my throat

It is not longer saliva

It is the tears

Tears of the combination between

The sadness and sorrow to leave this motherland

And

The taste of loath to give up

It is hard to describe unless you go through it in real life

Oh My Godddddd

I just opened my mailbox and guess what????!!!!!

GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!!

Nanyang Polytechnic is offering me an interview tomorrow at 9.30a.m.!!!

Fucking hell

Which means I have to book a ticket later

(which I have not)

And leave Kuching to Singapore tonight?????!!!!!!

I am not ready!

Gosh!!!!!!!

写着他的故事

让它继续

从没失踪

也不曾出现

有感情

有生命

却比它更难表达

还剩三天

一天二十四小时

三天七十二小时

命运一旦上轨

踏出了世界的第一步

只有恨下心

才能在另一片海岸大放异彩

这是一个开创大胆的思维

勇敢与胆怯之间

无法考虑太多

只想冲出那扇门

寻找属于自己的一片天

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电话里头

讯息渐渐绝种

铃声不再频密

另一头起了点争执

耐性向极限攀爬

天底下什么是永远？

心里已非常明白

-

这…

并非必然

这片土壤的颜色分得如此鲜明

周围的空气含有歧视与地位的氛围

懂得越多

沮丧却是加倍

如果通知函来了

四月或许就会离开

以往那般兴奋

落色了

离开了这片孕育我十几载的大地

道别这片感情的土地

-

满腹的话已没人要听了

之间的隔阂

是因为距离还是误会

时间给它冲得陌生了

-

以往那般画面不是这样的

你还记得吗？

Jack

Is recalling those time back

Need someone for heart-to-heart talk

Exhausted by all the liars, fakers

Disappointed by the facts

A good counsellor

As well a good listener

Anyone?

那一段。差距

城市与乡居的差距在那？

有的人不屑的说

是灰色森林与绿色森林

有人感慨地说

那是文明的悲哀

更有人说

这就是二十一世纪的步伐

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钢琴家

可以谱出流传百世的经典

却经不起人性的摧残

利与润的蹂躏

-

法拉利赛车手

疾快的风速

媲美时间的一转眼

行尸肉体的满足

却无法填满无底洞的深度

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摄影师

捕捉世界最美的镜头

却无法保留那一瞬间

眼眸的穿透力

已渐渐被遗忘

换来的

是虚的色彩

失真的色彩

-

寿司师傅

精湛的手艺

鲜鱼与海菜的结合

米粒与泽醋的火花

却无法包裹人性的美

-

在许多的转角与转淚点

展颜欢笑的辛酸

失落时孤独的泪水

知我者又何几

时间让我经历许多

也更爱上最原始最纯朴的爱

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风即使吹落了最后一片叶

雪即使吹灭了最后一把火

我依旧咬紧牙关

盼许着下一个黎明

艳阳高照的那一刻

哪怕是那么短暂

曾经拥有的价值

让一切都值得了

Something . Different

There are many many things that at which you don't have any option

But fate does

In which family you born in

How you appear to be when you grow up

From the starting point when I first opened my eyes

All the way I made through

Until this station

We always point out people of their realism

I do not understand why is this behave making up our culture

At this moment

It tells

Everyone loves money

Blood-linking relatives fight over for property

Beacuse they longing for wealth

Dark scene in government tells

Money is the culprit for all the chaos

What is the standard for sorting out our ranking in this era?

Money.

Who create money?

Human.

It may sounds sarcastic

But money tells everything

Could you shake your head and deny the fact?

NO MONEY, NO TALK

I am motivating myself

To earn stack(s) of cash

Some New Element?

Today is yesterday
Yesterday is the day after tomorrow
Tomorrow is yesterday
The day after tomorrow is today
AND
Everyday is the same!
I am getting bored of the on-going pace which is the same from time to time
I am going to CHANGE!
Also I am sending MADANI my deepest compliment
You have made me grown up so fast
And turning mature within a short instant
Thank you so much

A Round Of Big Mess

SPM results will be released soon
Probably after all the NS have ended their camping
which means it is possible to be any date after the 14th
I am getting vexed because I tend to be damn directionless
But one thing I am clear with myself is
Software, Computer, Civil, and E&E will be my priority for my Engineering study
Daddy was so glad that I am not longer pursuing medical field
He said he saw an article the other day saying that
In the coming years,
The ratio of doctors to patients will exceed the international quota
Which means doctors are in excess
Numbers of future doctors might get jobless
I am not trying to scare off those who are in to or currently in this field
But I gonna do something for myself to adopt to the change
I cannot just go for it just merely because I like Biology
My tuition principal told me one phrase and I am really aware of it
“兴趣不能当饭吃”
I just made an appointment with BOSCH director manager this afternoon
(Thanks to Chung Xian cousin for arranging me this schedule)
Him personally is a fresh software engineer graduate from University Technology Petronas
He did shared lots of his real life experience
It is not easy to study software engineer
And it is more to learning SAP language and creating and editing java script
But once I am over and graduate
Earning a 5 digit income like him is not a big deal in the field line
This statement has once consolidate my initial intention to pursue this course
And again to solidify my will to be a 5 digit incomer

Grey Is The Leader

Vogue has announced it's 2010 spring/summer fashion
It can be concluded that the trend is
GREY
Trend leaders like
GUCCI, Prada, Giorgio Armani, Emporio Armani,
Bottega Veneta, Fendi, Moschino Cheap & Chip
are injecting GREY into all of their major designs
Get some GREY matching
Dressed up in a proper way
So that you don't make yourself get weed out of the fashion

It is still. The Time

Few days since I made my last post
Things are going on normally
I mean nothing special happened for the past days
Anyway I made my first visit to Blackcat's native homeland
"Siburan"
Initially I thought it will be undeveloped and full of uncivilisation culture
The truth is totally different from my imagination
Equipped with a modern-look indoor food court
Filling up with famous franchise like Sugar Bun, Everise and so on
I heard that KFC is opening soon as well
What actually made me eye-opening was a store named
"KK Store"
Holy shit
It is even more up-to-date than the fashion trend in Kuching
And the fashion is even more branded and luxury than Petaling Street in KL
You can get any brand of what you could think of
Louis Vuitton, Chanel, Crocs, Nike, Adidas,
Levi's, Paul Smith, Polo, Camel Active, and many more
(They are all imitates)
In fact it is good for teens like us to shop
But in a long run
The rampant pirating culture will bring down the name of Malaysia
The only difference when we get ourselves compare to other country is
Our government never care for this absurd scenario
We are still being so proud of our "SATU MALAYSIA"