The Rush

The plane landed literally at Senai Airport

It was few years back I last taking a transit taxi from JB to Singapore

Quite a long journey although the whole trip was only two hours

Having dilemma in making such a daring decision

It was my first time to on board alone

To experience the feel of being independent

Without a lending hand neither from family nor friend

I saw many people waiving their hands as a sign of leaving

Deep in my heart, I know I am waiving to my family

But the feeling to depart is heavy

I know I cannot cry like anyone else

I cannot give a big hug to daddy or mummy like any others do

I have grown up and is stepping into 18 very soon

During the queue up

I can feel the luggage getting heavier

Filing by more and more reluctance

But the world is realistic

If I wanna succeed, sacrifice must be made

When the plane takes off

I am looking out the windows

This lovely cat city may only become my lovely retirement paradise

After a couple of decades

But not for the time when I fight for success

Tears that I have to bear with is the most merciless part

When I feel peristalsis in my throat

It is not longer saliva

It is the tears

Tears of the combination between

The sadness and sorrow to leave this motherland

And

The taste of loath to give up

It is hard to describe unless you go through it in real life