Past

I miss the old you.

生命只是一个过程

人来的时候两手空空

走的时候不也是这样

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Two Parts

1. Happy Birthday brother (24 July)

It was a special day for me to celebrate Andrew's birthday. I believe this was the first birthday celebration which I made a lot of effort to make it work. Despite the whining I made while waiting for the host, I should be blamed for a thousand times. A lot of first time in record, the first time I bought an iPhone as a present, and he told me that was also his first time to receive an iPhone as present. To me brotherhood is not judge by value of materialism, is how much you willing to share of what you have. As long as within my ability to render your needs, I am always ready to give. Once for a lifetime.

2. I Am Rectified (26 July)

My twitter quote of the day "I refuse to acknowledge perfection is virtue, since leak is now discoverable, healing process should be sped up to march towards better."

I have been on this topic with my advisor for quite some time but we are still indecisive for what action to be taken. I remember once she said "Are you sure you still want to find a replacement? We actually have problem dealing with such a big group of people, I was trying to cut down the amount to stay in board as I think it will be easier for us to control the whole." "No, I think having more manpower is beneficial for future event." "Do you have that much confidence." "I suppose."

It seems that I was overlooked the situation and overconfident at the same time. I always ignore problems which already persist and look positive at times. Until I was been questioned this evening which made me do not know whether to advance or to retreat at that awkward moment. I believe in a board of execution, everyone plays their role and their respective importance should not be neglected. But this time round people seems to neglect themselves at the first place. Disciplinary action was initially sentenced but I on hold to it. I will need to reconsider and closed-up meeting with advisor as I have seen this an influential issue if an outsider could question and challenge the dignity of our esteem. Despite only the minority, but I wish to goal a perfect board out of the best situation I could handle with.

p/s: We didn't force you to join us. We open to all and allow those who are interested to come forward and sit for an interview. But after you succeeded the interview, you forgot why in the first place did you come for an interview. If you don't even want to get the job, don't waste everybody's time. Be thoughtful and considerate. Leave the opportunity to those who are ready to initiate.

Undoubtedly, this is a great challenge for me.

Sia

[Lullaby] by [Sia] from [Some People Have Real Problems]

Send a wish upon a star

Do the work and you'll go far

Send a wish upon a star

Make a map and there you are

Send a hope upon a wave

A dying wish before the grave

Send a hope upon a wave

For all this souls you failed to save

And you stood tall

Now you will fall

Don't break the spell

Of a life spent trying to do well

And you stood tall

Now you will fall

Don't break the spell

Of a life spent trying to do well

Send a question in the wind

It's hard to know where to begin

So send the question in the wind

And give an answer to a friend

Place your past into a book

Put in everything you ever took

Place your past into a book

Burn the pages let them cook

And you stood tall

Now you will fall

Don't break the spell

Of a life spent trying to do well

And you stood tall

Now you will fall

Don't break the spell

Of a life spent trying to do well

[Repeat chorus]

Send a wish upon a star

Send a wish upon a star

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Talent

Everyone has his talent which he is inborn with

We should do hard on it and try to polishing it up

Instead of trying to correct our weaknesses

Talent is something you are gifted

That distinguish you from others

Where at certain instance you are good at certain things

I don't mean that weaknesses should be totally neglected but we should focus more on talent

Imagine that if a person is good in drawing but not singing

He should nurture his talent in drawing instead of trying to sing like David Cook

In the end he should end up like a great artist

But if he chose to practice more in singing rather than drawing

he might end up singing like a normal person at average

But in comparison

His achievement in singing wouldn't be as good as in drawing

Let's take Newton as an example

He is good in understanding Physics and Algebra

He carried out numerous research which subsequently contributed to today's Physics

But if he chose to study more on Biology or Chemistry

He might not be crowned as one of the Maths prince in the history

So do you get my point?

The important thing in life is you should know where your strong point stays

Discover it and further brushing it up to let it shine

But at the same time you should also take care of your weaknesses

But don't render as much attention as to your strong point

The code 234

It was a meeting initially drafted to discuss about the camp's committee

But right after the deputy left you started to change topic

You start asking about my family background, secondary life etc

You also told me about your family too

I was in real astonishment that you actually observe me all these while!

Asking my family background to further affirm your earlier statement

You were like giving prophecy

Or perhaps you actually read my mind

You go into every single line of the proposal in details

Which I must admit that I learned so much more today than what I was in secondary

Concerning how to ready a good proposal

This is the ever first time I feel you

like how some of my secondary teachers treat me as their child

That they really care about you

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"I foresee your leadership during the prize giving ceremony,

you actually can lead and firm at your place but you talk too soft.

You should appear to be firmer in your tone to let more people listen to you.

Don't you feel that some people actually think why should a soft talking guy

outstand them to become their leader. They are actually unhappy.

It should appear alright in the future when you step in the society where

I believe you are capable of becoming manager or leading a board.

But during the time in school, you must remember that those who can speak loud win

*she slammed the table and trying to act like big boss - she was trying to demonstrate me how to talk louder and firmer*

You are lack of "wind" in talking.

If you do observe closely, I actually speak differently to you all and with my colleagues.

Anyway, in your family, are you the eldest or youngest?

*then continue with my family story*"

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I should say that I really appreciate the way you try to pull me and polish me up

You keep involving me in most of the core planning events in the school

Which usually a DPE student wasn't given a chance to do so

You expose me to a wider opportunity like the recent

Brainstorming session for Open House 2012

Students usually don't get to participate in the planning of the event

But only in the running of this event

But I am honoured to get involved this time

And you let me represent the MF students during Open House 2012

What a fame!

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One day

I shall proof you that

"Nothing is impossible"

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p/s: You should be proud of yourself that even you wasn't in the top 2. But she loves you so much. She told me that she wants to polish you up especially the part where you shy to voice up your opinion. Even she never mention the reason why she dragged you down despite the higher vote cast you obtained. I believe this is her effort trying to keep the balance in between two programmes where fair equality is seek among the representatives from both side. She is trying her best not to upset any of them and to be tipped it as a biased move. She thinks far and has prudent vision.

情有独钟

有一种感觉无法解释

有一种冲动无法控制

在秒针瞬间移动的那一刻

化学的产生

无法预知的结果

就像赌下了一注

假设似是似非般

像是被推翻

像是证明了什么

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眼珠传达的画面

刺激了那一根的神经

灵魂的一震

麻痹了理智

吹眠了视线

此时，存在的只是那个信仰

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一夏一春的一闪

岁数不断往上攀

始终有个顶点

因为在意很多的过去

酿就了今天许多的遗憾

从过去走过的路上

恢复的伤口

伤疤是一次又一次经验的累积

很多身外物

不是一直长久的

即使在口袋划下了一刀

在你开心畅怀时

嘴角撩起的那一刻

一切都值得了

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幸会

In Fear

In your reply you told me that you will get back to me

tonight after you came back from oversea

But till now I have not receive any response from you

Please don't prank on me

This piece of stuff

Meant a lot to me

I must get the deal

Snoopy and Woodstock

Most consuming preparation I ever made

In means of time, energy and money

I wonder why your surname is not mine or vice versa

A Change

I cannot stand it any longer

After long consideration

I still decided to smash on it

And let it move on

Beginning of the End

Watched Harry Potter 7 finale

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"Beginning Of The End"

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Every time when a cycle is near to an end

A new round of incubation is occurring

Injecting new excitement to the going to be dullness

To an extent of infinity

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I have foreseen in what I have to confront

Temper has been shorten

Prolonged time frame is now yesterday

Anger is now in the envelop of soft tissue

It is vulnerable to anything fiery

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p/s: I was so shocked that a name of origin could catch so much attention especially when leaving you out. I wasn't in particular of the current city I am in because every piece of memory here is part of my living soul. The more noise you made, the more I realise the value of friendship. I was once brought up in a wrong concept.

I Know You Know

Staying up to 2am is not your style. Even if you don't tell, I sensed. I fuck care already.


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Miscellaneous

Doing reshuffling for the board

We will be emphasising on the importance of keeping up performance

We are event based

Major event based

And thus we need people capable of major event

New member will be introduced

New move will be injected too

Stepping Out

I was standing firmly on ground

As if both my foots were glued

Pretending I was a statue

But soon my confidence has shattered

I admit that

Everything changed after all

In the event of pranking

Can't you hear my hint?

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I walked towards you

Standing by side

Giving you a glimpse

Awaiting a response

But soon silence has built up sense of insecure

Moving away

With hard pace

With a deep wailing breath

I Heart You

Kuching

Melbourne

Perth

Auckland

Washington DC

Kajang

Kuala Lumpur

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Cities where all important people of me live in

Undulation

I always find the weather good

Day and night repeating

One day I look back

I see a humongous trunk soars high into the horizon

I start wondering when was it there

All those good days I have been enjoyed were because of the tree?

Is the tree a silent defender giving me all the assurance of goodness?

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Even the strongest part has a point

A point where no one should ever try to mock

A limit where an extreme is believed to happen

Boiling water over its boiling point can arise pressure giving away high force

Striding big pace around the track pushing you to move beyond walking - run

Giving full strength of your foot on the accelerator will speed up your vehicle

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A border

Where it distinguish two different states from the left and the right

If the extreme could yield a desire result

Why not?

If the risk of vice versa shall persist

Stay clear and don't put yourself at stake

Avert any worst case scenario

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Faith levitates in air

We both breathe our belief

What is the purpose of bringing down the ideology which we have mutually upheld

I was caught in anger at the first second

But emotion had shattered at the second second

Disappointment at the first moment

But I recalled what has costed me more in a long run

I shouldn't impose pressure when you are actually under one

It is too difficult for me to make even a mumble

for a string of 5 letters

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Shall I shed a tear or two

It/They reflect(s) what the deepest part of heart has taken

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Reality is sometimes a dream

We woke up and forgot everything

The Peugeot

Me is want this car

the Peugeot 308 cc

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and Benz S-class, BMW 5 and X5 and Audi A5 and TT

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I will earn a million and buy them all

Don't run away from my car porch!

I Miss You

Twitter is the only reason why the heart keeps beating

<3

A Little Changing Bathroom

Actually I am quite uneasy to see my bottles of toiletries been putting on the ground in the bathroom since long time ago.
So this afternoon I decided to take an initiative to do a little change - by fixing an organiser onto the wall.



So I bought this from NTUC which is nearby. Wanted to head down to IKEA but you know the word lazy right.



So yeah, my bottles of shampoo, conditioner, shower gel and body scrub look more organized now. This improved aesthetic view has added more joyous whenever I am taking shower.

p/s: I think we need a talk. A lot of stuff have been popping out of mind and can never be easily solved just by a few sentences in Skype. Not only I need to clarify my doubts, but I also want to share some of my walks lately. Needless to mention, I think you know yourself.

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Last Sentence.

If this is not puppy love

Forget about the egotism

If you wish to keep it

Good luck.

If Time Could Rewind

If time could rewind

I will avoid all the silliness

Holding tight of the right moments

Learn to love and to be loved

One year

And so many had happened

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p/s: I just couldn't believe I tear at this moment

One More Time, You Whore!

I believe my life is not as misery as yours

I don't have countless friends like you

Who don't serve their purpose in times of need

But I have a handful of brothers

A philosophy of which you can never understand nor experience

Cause you never have one

Or maybe you have but you never realise or cherish the moment

Stop being a whore

And I won't leave

I once said and will keep the promise till the very end

Providing the earlier statement is true

Our Beloved Country - Malaysia.

Which part of this upholds the peace and stability of our country?

The doused woman or her obvious misery because of Malaysia today?

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The principle is simple

We demand a peaceful walk towards the iconic Stadium Merdeka

In the dress of yellow which symbolize "Bersih" (clean)

Covering a wide scope of area including

a more transparent electoral board

a less corrupted government

a fair politic

all for an aim

To achieve a better tomorrow for Malaysia

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But let's see what has turned up to be?

Cops set up roadblocks to halter public from entering the capital

causing crackdown of Kuala Lumpur

Up next, tear gas and water cannon to disperse the crowd

Which the cops claimed them to endanger the national public security

and accusing them for affecting the central business district

But now you stupid fuck asshole police go and set up roadblocks

Blocking all sort of people from entering the downtown

Now who is the culprit causing the trouble?

Bersih keeps on emphasising that they demand a peaceful walk but not a riot

But you police (puppet of BN) is fear of the 8 propaganda which the Bersih has declared

If you could stand firm in front of these accusation

Why would you even need to waste the national asset

(which belongs to every Malaysian)

To summon thousands of police to set up barrier across the capital

Where I thought police was supposed to fight criminals

Are the patriots robbers, rapists, traffickers?

The most inhuman part is when you bitchy cops even attacked hospital!

What the fuck?!

Did you even think before you act?

Imagine what if some of the patients inside died because of your naive move?

Well, it actually happened

Allahyarham Baharuddin, a patriot who died during the rally

He is believed to be chased by police which caused an asthma attack that took away his life

So what now?

Are you police going to take up the responsibility?

Or will the case be closed and hid into

the "Malaysia book of dark" like the Antatuya and Teoh Beng Hock case?

Shame on you, not Malaysia but the Barisan Nasional

Even after you lost 2/3 majority during the 308 political tsunami

You never learn

By trying dirty tricks and manipulating the electoral board

You thought you still can fool the people?

Despite the heavily preached "1 Malaysia" by Najib

We never see us an united Malaysia until the rally earlier this afternoon

All Malaysians regardless of race, religion and background come as one

To defend democracy and to reject the corrupted government

BN response which refused to reflect themselves and the tactic

To counter attack the armless people has further geared up the anger

Today is the beginning of a new chapter

Najib be the next Mubarak

Is not that you're not good

But I believe the national's progress should not be haltered by someone incompetent

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Sincerely,

I love Malaysia

As Always.

Reasons are being simple why I choose The Body Shop

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Against Animal Testing

I went research that major cosmetics producer actually test their products by injecting them into animal eyes until they go blind to set the safety guideline for consumer.

These products include Proter and Gamble (which produces Pantene and Head&Shoulder), Garnier, Unilever (which produces Dove and Lux) and many more.

I strongly against this policy and thus I will reduce my usage of products from these manufacturers till they obey the belief which The Body Shop practises.

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Support Community Trade / Activate Self Esteem / Defend Human Rights

This is The Body Shop effort to help ease poverty in third world country especially

those from marginalised communities around the world.

They pay them a fair amount and rare access to a global market that would otherwise be out of their reach.

In exchange for the high quality ingredients and handicrafts of which the farmers around the globe have produced, they are rewarded with a long term relationship based on the very fundamentals of fair trade.

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Protect Our Planet

Most Body Shop packagings are post-consumer recycled plastic.

This has significantly reduce the impact of non-biodegradable petroleum based plastic from piling up the earth space.

Besides, the shopping bag that comes along every time when you make a purchase with The Body Shop is also a fully recycled paper bag.

Not only that, the ink used for the printing on the bag is water-based and not chemical-based.

Lastly, the newly refreshed The Body Shop range products ranging from the body wash, facial wash to the newly introduce "Earth Lovers" series are silicones, sulphates, parabens and colourants free.

These include the daily toiletries I use which consist of Tea Tree Range and Olive Oil Shower Gel.

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And today I went The Body Shop again

In conjunction with the Summer Buys promotion

I bought a Ice Blue shampoo and Grapefruit shower gel at great bargain

I also grabbed a Tea Tree facial wash for my brother

Good cause is always share for the worthy

The Ice Blue shampoo is really cooling as the menthol contain in it

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p/s: I went to visit Malaysia The Body Shop website and I realised that there is a price slash on the regular price items which used to be more expensive than in Singapore. But now the new tags seems to be closer to those in UK which simply means cheaper. Now calling back what I just paid earlier, except the promotion items, I actually paid a premium for the Tea Tree face wash and night fade lotion. wtf.

Too Much.

I never know you could decipher my words that much

We know each other for like 1 year 2 months?

But I am impressed when there are times

You surpass some of my besties to understand the principle of my brain

How it twist and response

But I could hardly access yours like how I used to

I see your silhouette

Shadow is clear in shape but what's inside is a doubt

I can only guess but accuracy has lost

The portrait has been reserved for priority

Where I was ousted

Seriously. Like Too Much.

More than 365 days we didn't see each other in real

Punker reminds me of you

Too much secrets we reveal to each other during these days

Despite the fact that hundred miles lie between

How Skype decipher our voice and transmit in digital means

How the mic detect our frequency and convert it to electrical signal

How the signal been amplified by the speaker

We miss out too much when we are not longer travelling inside the black Camry

Countless scratches we made on the car

But I can never forget the number plate - 292

Truly not only a number

But a milestone along the friendship path

Which only travels further when time marches on

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Sincerely,

Singapore for Melbourne

Gasping Fresh Air

Is not busy

Filled and packed daily agenda

Making every single moment a task

Even a simple breath

Or a simple step which fast forward few seconds of life

In between the gap gasping for fresh air

Fresh air promotes vitality of health

And prolongs life span

I don't want to die that early

Put You Up

Even if you failed the interview

I don't fail you

I am giving you a chance to revive

I played my part to hang you in the hall of fame

The other half falls on luck

And our fate

Whether you stay or vice versa

If the outcome appears to be what you initially dedicated

I hope you impose full strength and focus

Don't let me down

And let's shine together

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I appreciate what came across and going to be

I made a way that the gravel is ground to its finest

I make sure there is no acuate angle to hurt your bare foot

A lending hand to hold you stand straight from where you flunked to

Yours or Theirs

A city which you stay for 50 years

50 years later your solid reason continues to stay firm

Will I be the next?

We tried to voice up through different mediums

It has been heard but action was not taken

In the end

We leave

Reluctantly

Common Test Was Over

Tests were like finally over

Yelled and yeah

I supposed hard works did paid

Imagine how many days had I sacrficed in Kuching

Spending in study room digesting all the formula and jargons

And missing out those times going out with people

Especially with Pigtail

We didn't get to eat "fire" this time round

This was pretty sad

I knew at the same time you were busy with your QS assignments

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I went clubbing

I slept for 12 hours

My pc couldn't startup

I reformatted it

I watch Transformers 3

I restoring from backups (still doing now)

Managing my 27GB iTunes playlist (seriously not an easy job nor a joke)

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Strolling in this corner that resembles mine hundred miles away

When darkness blinds out every single pair of eyes

In the burst of light where the pair of pearl white wings reflects

Merely a glimpse of the magical wand giving a false hope of angel occurrence

When shivering cold turns warmth

In desperation you smell love

Hope has been built up

Sadness shall be forgotten

Close your eyes and fall backwards

Feel the nature of air and temper of gravity

When no one holds your arm

There is a belief that backs you up

Heart is the answer to all doubts

Not an ordinary one but earnestness counts

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L-O-V-E

It is always so easier to spell