Happy New Year!

I missed the Christmas greeting and I have no excuse to miss the

NEW YEAR GREETINGS!!!
especially to all
my family members, relatives and friends
also to all my blog's readers and everyone on this earth

Happy 2010 New Year!

Countdown in Another 8 days

Whee~

It sounds so much enervate and lethargic

Going to take off heading to capital in about one week time

Not much anticipating as I do not feel like spending so much money again

I am always confront by the guiltiness every time following a wild shopping binge

This time probably will not be an exception

Bless me there is going to be a big sale

And I can grab some pants at a bargain

And also for a kind of shirt that the printed design becomes motive when battery is fixed on

That's it for the goal this time

Wishing me a happy holiday

Blurrk~~Going to Shirley's house and holding some discussions with Kelly

Be right back to iHome =)

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悠闲地走在街上

后头的店家播起了爆竹声的新年歌

我才发现悠闲的脚步根本无法跟上时间的步伐

想放快时，却也怎么也赶不上飞机的速度

这是残忍的一幕

是常见的离别

许多离别的祝福在手指间不断传送

即使想哭

也只把头向上仰，望着星空

脸上强力挤出个微撇的笑容

告诉旁人-今晚的夜空好美，月亮好圆

知我者谓我心忧，不知我者谓我何求

回想起的日子里

有的依然鲜明，有的却已沉淀许久

鲜明的不过那些体面的肤浅故事

不值得一提，但不可缺少

沉淀的就犹如典雅的葡萄酒

愈久愈醇

欲开盖时但又深怕可惜

沉淀的记忆总耐人寻味

欲谱出的故事深怕感动时又流涕一番

人

就是那么感伤，那么感性的万物之灵

再失去的那一刻才恍然大悟

我回顾走过的足迹

发现没错过太多的快乐

但蔑视一瞥的更多

十七年的阅历点醒了我

即使无法全数把握住

感恩，家人的手我握着了

朋友的手有的握了又放，放了又握

一时之间无法想起多个名字

-邦耀、慧芸、馨娴、国良、宏凯、奕婧、诗丽、道晟、景丰

这是闪过脑海的名字

还有许多许多的名字无法一一道尽

生命因你们而精彩

记忆因你们的沉淀而更香醇

未来的路上我会继续陪同

只要还有一口喘息的气

你们是我

永远的家人与朋友

Best Friend Ever

Feel free to photoshoppie another picture

This time I choose to edit a "Best Friend" picture

Come with low resolution at a dimension of 300 x 292

Sometimes we learn to cherish the story hidden inside the picture

And to appreciate the value within

Not every time a clearer and sharper image will always be the conspicuous one

Very simple but just simply like it

无题

又是一场对白

永远没有结局的对白

一样的话题一直重复

心里明白这是一种耗时的徒劳

却怎么都一直喜欢这样耗下去

已经到了一种心理失衡的状态

在空白的话题中寻找方向

找到了也不过是虚幻的一场梦

可能做梦是一种喜好

偶尔或许是件好事

久了是酿病的噩梦

在虚幻中寻找真实

需要一些拿捏

还在乳臭未干的初级思想阶段

需要不停逼进自己

让它来得更快

成长更多

虫鸣此起彼落

暗示着对白的句点即快画上

不意外这又是一场无结局的对白

习惯了那般无题的话语

这是生命的的一部分

是无题的一种特色

就让它无题的结束吧

One Week

Thanks Jesus, I'm finally back to my "iHome" here

Bear in mind that iHome simply means my bloggie

I was so much busy shopping around in Singapore last week

It was so so so much fun as it was my first time to go with my friends

What more with my best friend, Fabian

I can see spiders starting to build up their home-sweet-home in my iHome

It's time to post some words and get rid of it!

Well, I'm going out to uncle house now for a while

And later Tchii, Shirley, Aelred them will pay a visit to my house

Early in the morning tomorrow we are departing to either Buntal or Damai to catch a best shot of tomorrow sunrise

Cheers buddy

Fabian, thanks for your words in your bloggie

I appreciate it so much

Enjoy your Christmas

Before I end this post in such a hurry

I would like to share one photo which I took at Orchard Road last few days

I feel that the colour is very tempting and nice

Enjoy!

Here We Go

It is indeed a very pleased trip to be said

As this will be the first time I travel overseas with my best friend, Fabian

He told me he is going to tell me some annotation of life during the trip

And I cannot wait for it

I am so excited as anyone else will do

The most important agenda tomorrow is his birthday

With all the very best and Jesus blessings

I wish you a great greater greatest Happy Birthday!

I have no word to express for the jubilant feeling up my heart

With all my very best wishes wishing you

Once, happy 17th birthday, Fabian!

Hug

I hug her

I have finally take out the gut, the gallantry

I know you need my love at this very harsh moment

I heard you have an insomnia lately

That's why I tell myself

I will promise you a sweet dream tonight

When my arms reached your shoulders

I just could not let go

I feel your warmth

I was touched by your love

In the word of tears

"Everything will be alright"

I was so mumble until I was uncertain whether you heard it

No matter what happens

I am a lean on for you

Love you, mum

So do Jesus

62 times

I listened 62 times tonight

"1973"
You make me feel comfortable and safe
You make me find myself
Thanks James

The Lost

Thanks my dear Zhann, I really love this.

It brings me back the days when we are still sitting next to each other.

Zhann ♥ so much

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Time really flies
I miss the time when you sitting next to me during Chinese tuition
The time when I be your driver
The time when we had breakfast together
When we rushed together
Always keep in touch
♥

心。灵。魂。

常挥舞的那舞台

灯光已黯淡

唯一亮着的是街后那道后巷

虽然没台前那般耀眼

至少照亮我要走的路

在皓雪纷飞的日子里

给我一丝温暖

其它冻得僵硬的肢体

就让它迷迷糊糊地过去

不在乎了

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在夜晚望着星空的那种遐想

始终是虚幻的

我比谁都更爱繁星谱的夜曲

虫鸣是它最美丽的伴奏

都市里人潮不断

有谁曾真正停下脚步

好好欣赏大自然的画

孤芳自赏已是一种悲哀

是都市换来的代价

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在这无生命气息的荧幕前

身体与网络的结合

把灰色地带给拉走了

虽然能力有限

至少舒服些

不太爱说话

不代表没话

无声的呐喊

或许是另一种沟通

五指尖在那凹凸不平的沟通平台上

谱了许多我的歌

画了许多我的画

更记录了我无数的故事

心。灵。魂。
我已替你找到了个家

没有很温暖

但只要无声的呐喊存在

得到的是比温暖更温暖的温暖

終わり

私はちょうど素晴らしい残りを有し今たいと思う

不注意な今日および間違いのための十分

私が立つできない日があるかもしれない

私が平和のために私の生命を犠牲にしてもいければ

私はそれをする

私は私がちょうど余りにだめになることを考える

それは息子を終える

言わないためにあきらめなさい

しかし私は言うために理解する

明白

腰都酸了，风扇转动的声音依然强烈，快速移动的空气中让他的声音比预期的更快到达耳际，我听得比什么声音都还清晰。即使千百个不愿意，萦绕在耳旁的每字每句，我比谁都还清楚。时针划过了晨曦的冷风，我虽然尝试咀嚼那蕴藏的道理，但那一个部分始终无法消化。或许他会带着失望的眼神离开，但我比谁都更清楚我要的什么。任何事情我都可妥协，唯独这一件是，我，真的无法做到的。他们也许笑说养了个十七年的，换来的却是这般笑话。此时浮现在脑海的是两天前刚考过的一句方块美言，你可能不明白大马人都管它叫作“名句精华”来着的。其实我认为中华文化真正的精华远比这二百三十句的“名句精华”来得更精髓，更深奥博大。这一句是鲁迅《自嘲》里的一句——“横眉冷对千夫指，俯首甘为孺子牛”。略意大概是说一名愿为理想而奋斗的人，是不会理会一般人的无理指责。我并不带着讥讽的意思，只希望你看得到我追梦人的坚持与决心。银行里三十多万的存折，你说是用来渡完余生的支撑。你说以前的你像我一样天真，总认为来日会有所作为，但其实不然，说着只要平静地度日即可。我顿时间愣了，这未必也比我想象中的落差太大了吧？虽然我并非什么圣人，志愿也未必神圣，但至少我知道我需要什么，有个目标的推动力。而你，却一直试图把它给毁灭，让原本伸手可及的萤火虫，变得遥不可及的夜里繁星。我开始觉得眼前模糊的视线更乱了，唯一不变的定律依然是不会改变的。现在才明白别人常说的一句话“有些事情不知道比知道的更好，有些事情逃避比面对的更好”。有些事情，随着时间的流逝，也应明白了。

The Last Stand

I finished the whole three series of X-Men this morning

At first I thought I will get fascinating by the impressive visualisation effect
But soon right after the movie entered an end
What I gained is more than what I have thought
We should respect others
Other than Homo Sapiens
Any other organisms living on this land are known as "the son of earth"
They all have the right to stay back
We should start learning to show deference
Not only to the kind of same species
But to any other beings
As long we all share the same breathe

More Than I Think

Pretty impressive

I know he is talented and gifted

But I never expect it is that much

It even takes me couple of days to understand and to master it

But you, in a short rush of twenty-four hours

Created a miracle

You will soon overtake me

I like your talent

But somehow envy

I will continue to nurture it and turn it into a perfect

I know

You worth me to do so

自己

我解脱了

整整一个月的时间

与书魔搏斗的日子终于结束

现在认真思考着

是医学，还是科技

是离开，还是留下

是本地，还是国外

这种种抉择

总叫人恼人

哪怕有一天脑筋偏移了

走上一条不归路

但现在这种悠闲的日子

其实还蛮喜欢的

没有压抑，没有约束

但希望还是不要过得太久

日子久了

骨子不散

灵也会被拖走

《读者》里一片文章

启发了我

不遗憾就是在还没后悔前把喜爱的给做好

我总觉得这句话在这种漫无游荡的日子里

应好好地实践

给自己一个机会

一个自己的机会

1973

离别的愁绪

James Blunt 感动的音乐

每走完的一段路程

总有许多不为人知的辛酸

每一首歌曲

扣人心旋的背后

有多少不为人知的努力

And we sang, "Here we go again".

简单的一句

带出的却是那流逝的悲哀

曾何几时总希望一切从来

再次走过时

会更加小心

深怕再次失足

让遗憾有机可趁

Simone, wish I had known that

真希望自己更早发现它的始末

想珍惜时

却已太迟了

And though time goes by, I will always be in a club with you in 1973

时间的洗礼

成长了不少

但那依旧的记忆永远存在

景物会改变

花草会凋谢

但那份情谊

却是不灭的神话

This Chapter is Closed

Finally, it's really finally

The day that I'm always looking forward is finally here

Feeling happy?

Not really to be frank

Maybe this is human natural instincts

Always not being satisfied and always ask for more and more
That's why Homo Sapiens are always known for their selfishness and greediness

Though I'm one of them

Maybe this is the reason why I'm so inspired

To write the Chinese essay "Not to Leave any Regret in Your Life" today

My writing hand was actually begging me to stop writing

But you know, when the ideas come, it just couldn't stop

I wrote a seven pages essay today

I hope, the essay will be returned as I really like it and I mean it

Right after the exam I got some of my classmates leaving some writing on my shirt

I know it's going to be priceless as a memorable one

I took some photos as well

It took me some time

Soon I got a rush to Fabian's house to get back the pendrive for returning to Yu Heng

It is a mission given by Jia Chee

You know, one of my friends from Miri

I got a surprise when I was there

Fabian's dad invited me for a feast on tomorrow night at Hock Lee

Filing my heart with blending of both happiness and question marks

I promised him
Soon when I get back home I texted Fabian to turn the question marks into answer

And, I merely forget about it

Fabian's birthday is on this Friday and his dad is celebrating for him

Actually I'm a bit bashful upon the invitation as I know no one from his relatives

But still I'll be willing to go if Fabian really permits

But he seems not to be very convenient

Or probably he himself feeling bashful as well?

So I might just make up my mind not going

But I'm really happy that Fabian's dad will invite me

As I'm the only friend present in the invitations

Sometimes, maybe I'm just to be wise in one's own conceit

Maybe people don't really take me just as how closet as how I think

But he really plays a role in my life

He is my friend now and for the rest of my life

Not only friend

But my best friend

My soul mate

Though this chapter is now officially closed

But the story will be carried on in the following chapter

Fabian, thank you for being my best friend

Tears

This is the second post I uploaded tonight

What's going on please?

Why am I so getting upset?

Vacation, Study and Relationship

I think all of them have made up a stress heavy enough to make me suffocating

I wanna take a long breathe

I know as time passes

I enjoy myself lesser and lesser

Tears start rolling down my cheeks

They are going to accompany the windy night tonight

The night is so dark

So sad

The First and The Worst

It's actually time to pack up the post-SPM mood and get ready to set go

For me, it does not make sense anymore

The blithe sensation tending not to fill up every single nerve in my body

Glaring into the thin air watching how the God of sorrow playing their greatest role

It should be the time when blood start to rise high after the air plane set off

But now I can imagine

The look of despair reflecting by the windows of sorrow

The sombre ambiance starts to dissolve

Into my body

My room

My world

I have no choice but to accept

I hope I can withdraw from this

I just beg

Beg for some peace

I do not ask for more

Hoping to buy some goodies from "Fair Price" at Hougang Point

Pay a visit to my favourite hawker stall at Hougang Avenue 6

Shop around at Giordano and Bossini at Hougang Mall

I just don't want to leave any further away from Hougang

Because I'm seriously

Losing myself

舞双刀

没事儿翻了翻《东方日报》，意外获得了这份收获...

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A（工作成果）= B（工作效率）+ C（付出时间）

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我稍微给它换了个装，变成了

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A（学业成绩）= B（专心程度）+ C（付出时间）

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想了想，觉得还蛮富哲学性质来着的。

一般人通常会在付出的时间上打上满分的佳绩，但常败给了专心程度。

其实，要专心一点也不难嘛，怎么说？

在学习上，我们往往只会在自己有兴趣的科目上有兴趣，从而产生了浓厚的专注力。

所以，只要尝试喜欢上那些枯燥乏味的科目，花些时间了解了解它，培养感情，并爱上它，专注力自然而然提升。

非常概括的一个说法。

或许吧，有些时候字少一些，思考的空间就大一些。

该是给自己的脑袋一个咀嚼的空间了。

就，好好思考吧。

或许，它会改变你的学习作业。

也或许，你会开窍，从此学业突飞猛进？

谁知道？

One More to Go!

Bahasa Melayu

Bahasa Inggeris

Sejarah

Mathematics

Pendidikan Moral

Additional Mathematics

Biology

Science

Physics

Chemistry

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All of the above subjects are officially off!

Leaving the pity Chinese behind

Which is going to be Chinese soon

I start to smell my freedom

And it's gonna be cooked in less than one week

And I'm going to taste it!

Hurray

One more to be reminded

Vacation starts next week

Cheers!

Watched

It's slow but I finally watched

Half a year ago

It was very sad for me to miss the Harry Potter 6 on screen play in the cinema

Six months later I have spaced out my time to watch it

Overall it's nice

But lots of the storyline have been summarised and abandoned

It's quite hard to relate the scenes in the movie if you did not read the book before

Two thumbs up for the virtual effects in the movie

Recommended for all

An Idiosyncratic Inspiration

This is one of my Creaf Studio artworks

I certainly like this for no reason

I like colours

Colours of seven

Colours of rainbow

That is why I always like to blend

The colours of rainbow with artistic

This is my design

My style

Belongs to my sublime Creaf Studio

A great credit for this

Another Cadence of Musical Note

I know this is slow but I have finally changed my iTape located on the sidebar

I choose to replace the old Chinese songs with English songs

A rich blend of pop, country and acoustic genre made up the playlist

1st 1973 by James Blunt

2nd Nobody's Home by Avril Lavinge

3rd Better Together by Jack Johnson

Hope you like it

风声

“

我身在炼狱留下这份记录

是希望家人和玉姐原谅我此刻的决定

但我坚信

你们终会明白我的心情

我亲爱的人

我对你们如此无情

只因为民族已到存亡之际

我辈只能奋不顾身

挽救于万一

我的肉体即将陨灭

灵魂却将与你们同在

敌人不会了解

老鬼 老枪 不是个人

而是一种精神

一种信仰

”

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顾晓梦（周迅）

一部美的影片儿

An Effete Empire of Dubai

To be frank, I was shocked by a sudden when I flipped through the newspaper yesterday. The headline gave me a heavy knock and I kept on asking myself what the hell is this?

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Dubai is currently suffering from it's serious economy down fall. How could this happen? I am still so impressed by Dubai's bold policies to build up many skyscrapers that open the eyes of the world and I could not believe that this may come one day. It is just like a doomsday. The chain effects is severe and it hits the world's economy abruptly.

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What to do? I just went to the New Yorks Time and most of the pages are coloured with the related news to the economy down fall of Dubai. There is no word to express the sadness and despair that I am feeling right now. The legend of the fast growing economy of Dubai has entered a sinister period and I hope the story does not end here. The "bubblenisation" of the glory of Dubai in the book "Dubai: The Vulnerability of Success" is reflecting a real statement now. The crisis is likely to have long-lasting effects on the seven-member emirates federation, where Dubai has long played rebellious younger brother to oil-rich and more conservative Abu Dhabi. Dubai officials, swallowing their pride, have made clear that they would be open to a bailout, but so far Abu Dhabi has offered assistance only to its own banks.
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I am just keeping my fingers crossed and I hope Abu Dhabi will quickly lend a hand to put an end to all of these. Dubai is still one of my dream city and I hope that I still have the chance to pay a visit to Dubai in the coming days. There is no way that Dubai cannot overcome the crisis.
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Burj Al Arab Hotel in Dubai looks like a boat sailing the ocean.
Burj Al Arab Hotel in Dubai is the ONLY 7-star luxury hotel in the entire world.
Rooms are priced accordingly -- from $1,361 to $10,073 a night (as of Jan, 06)!

The entire building had used about 23 tan of gold for its construction.
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The Palm Islands, also referred to as The Palm Dubai and The Palms, are the world's three largest man-made islands, which are being built on the coast of the emirate of Dubai, in the United Arab Emirates (UAE).

The project is being handled by Al Nakheel Properties (Nakheel Corporation), which will increase Dubai's shoreline by 120km (72 miles) and create a large number of residential, leisure, and entertainment areas.

The idea was first announced in May 2002 and the two manmade freehold artificial palm tree-shaped resort islands are expected to maintain Dubai's position as a premium tourist destination. The Palm Islands has also been named 'The Eighth Wonder of the World'.

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This is not a BMW showroom. This is a police station in Dubai.

Yes, Dubai police use BMW sedan as their police car.

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Burj Dubai, the tallest building in the world with a height of 818m.

The total budget for the Burj Dubai project is about US$4.1 billion, and for the entire new "Downtown Dubai", US$20 billion.

How tall Petronas Twin Towers is when compare to Burj Dubai?

Here I Am

Oh my beloved

I cannot wait
I miss your palmy collection of fashions

I wanna treat my stomach with gorgeous seafood

I want to lock my soul in Sentosa Island

Oh man

Calm down Jack

You'll be there in just less than 3 weeks time

Hurray!!!

I say!

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Hey you Mr Andrew Tan

Cousin is heading to your place soon
Let's growl for holidays

Kiss for the Christmas Sale's tags

and say hi To ION Orchard

Oh my gosh

My heart is beating fast!

Biology, Science, Physics

As a candidate of 2009 SPM examination

I am going to sit for Biology, Science and Physics papers in the coming week

I have made a forecast results analysis for myself based on my yearly performance in school

God bless me that I can score A+ for all the subjects

In Jesus name I pray

台北金马影展11/05-28

第四十六届金马奖颁奖典礼即将在11月28日假台北拉开序幕

好期待

好兴奋

新一届影帝、影后即将诞生
好好拭目以待吧

Newly Redesign

Finally I have came out to change my blog skin after one year
I got this skin from infinityskins.blogspot.com
But I reedit the XML and java script code
No doubt I was having a hard time doing that
But at least it did not take a lot of my time
By the time I do keep most of my widgets
also I added in some new and cool widgets as well
I love my newly redesign blogspot
And also
I hope you do
Enjoy reading
=)

A Moment of Thought

I had a dream last night

A dream of cerebration

While I was walking in the virtual dream world

fascinating by the random shooting of colourful meteors

I met Biology.
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Biology: Hello, Jack, am I the most favourable subject of yours?

Jack: Of course, you've always been making me proud. I love you just as how much I love my lappie.

Biology: I'm so glad to hear that! I can always ensure your bright future as long as you're willing to spend time studying me.

Jack: Although I love you, but I'm not interested in the field you're staying in.

Biology: I understand your concern, but I know you know what to do and what is the best for you.

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Meanwhile, Physics passed by and joined the conversation.

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Physics: Jack, I heard that you've an inborn endowment and strong passion towards computing. This is my field, welcome to my world.

Jack: I know, but it's sad to learn that Physics is the suckest subject of mine among the three science subjects.

Physics: Too bad, but if you wish to be one of my greatest collaborators, you've got no choice but to master and love me!

Jack: What to do if and only this is the only option.

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Sometimes, life is not always the way we wanna it to be.

Things may come the other way round, it is only the matter that how strong your suitability is. Standing in a dilemma is always a challenge facing by everyone.

It is just depends on how you twist yourself to suit yourself in the ever changing environment.

Always utilise the power of wit and wisdom gifted,

to make impossible to change

and

to make change to impossible.

Be versatile, you can make a difference.

Not in a Good Mood

Fine Fine Fine
I am caught by a sudden anger
due to the trip
What the F*ck?!
I told u very clear that
I have no room to accommodate you
And yet you still wanna follow me?
Jack,
this is the ever ever first time you met someone
with no sense of ashamed
Fine Fine Fine
This is kinda a big matter
I will talk to you about it tomorrow
And
I think
I have to be direct
And straight to the point
I am sorry that I have to

回忆

读者朋友的部落格，才突然发现距离原来那么远了。回忆起当时认识你的点点滴滴，那份扰人的感慨即涌上心头。记得曾经被人问过是不是兄弟，只因为有一点点点点相似的脸外，莫过于我们俩总出现在一起，而看不到的共同点，相信就是对华语的那份热忱与执着吧。现在忽然想起以往几乎每天呆在你家的时候，都差点忘了原来自己其实还有个家。对你，我曾经当成是在学校的食堂里齐坐的朋友，曾经是在大庭广众疯狂的良伴，曾经是齐到KL支持你姐的歌迷，更曾经是无话不说的死党。再续与不续的日子里，曾吵闹欢笑，甚至有一次濒临绝交的跫境。虽然那是两年前的故事了，但现在回想起来依然历历在目，像是刚发生在两秒之前的事。总总的一切好像一场撰好的精彩故事，总耐人寻味。在这两年的时间洗礼里，我跟你像是背对着地向前走，在两个年度里把距离拉得好远。现在徘徊在你部落格里的字里行间，看到了那无尽的距离，但，唯一不变的，依然是你那独特的音乐品味，优美的句子与永远不变的猫之作风。虽然友谊的故事已没有什么后续了，但是那一份朋友的关心依然存在。没有很奢望可以与你分享喜悦，但我希望我至少可以在你喝着苦涩的咖啡时化作奶精，在你暗自伤心时好好的给予安慰。没有了每日碰面的机会，没了每天共餐的日子里，只希望你可以过得更好，比以前更好。

最后，
为我们的友谊而欢呼与喝彩吧，
因为，
它是无价的。

风

隐形的
不知觉的
轻盈的
围绕着鼻梁
是股美好的味道
柔中带刚
刚中带柔
夹带着淡淡蓝莓的味道
看得到诱人心旋的蔚蓝
忧情的嘴角渐渐撩起
对了
对了
就是它
似咬非嚼
似吞非饮
一股热血涌进
这一次笑了
是遗失许久的笑容
悲哀的时间眼红了
挣扎中
我站在原地
看着它随风而去
无情地将我嘴角收起
只希望在未来的日子里
依然有缘相见
让我再次轻吻你的美
再次让那难忘的愉快充满我的心灵

I don't like this

The first 3 papers are now gone
You can imagine how relief it could be
Well, take a closer look
My eyes are looking slanting
The right one is looking bigger
Alright
Thanks ya
SPM
You are really an invincible plastic surgeon

5S1 Class Tee Redesign

Newly redesign.

Based on the tree concept

Hope you like it

向左走 。向右走

好难的抉择
一边是愿望的天边
一边是家人的反对
向左走
还是向右走
是坚持
还是听从
有谁听到我的无奈
更有谁能了解

I have an Ambiguous Ambition

I have an Ambiguous Ambition

我有个模棱两可之愿望

-

There was once when I yearn for the best

我曾经想突破自我

-

The time when the goal was set high

有个有如登天之难的志愿

-

And now

现在

-

The goal has been achieved

志愿都实现了

-

By the same time

但同时

-

Things had flown away from my side

却错过了好多好多美好的事物

-

You shout you run

你呐喊 你跑吧

-

It shall never return anymore

永远也不复在

-

It not longer under your possession

再也不属于你了

-

It is time to set your mind free

是时候放开一切了

-

Your ambition is nothing much more than just an ambition

志愿永远都只是个志愿

-

Family and friendship are treasure of life that worth to be cherished

亲情与友谊才是值得被珍惜的无价之物

-

For now and forever

直到永远

完结篇

最后的一个月
与五年的时间无法相提并论
但凡事只要一到尽头
一切都显得那么珍贵
认真想想
终日为伴的朋友
引领我成长的良师益友
在任务即将完成之际
即快写下中学的完结篇

-
昔日的回忆
是苦是甘
都快锁进脑海的一页
那将尘封许久的一页
待来日某一天
续为津津乐道

-
好沉重的心情
日子一天一天过
能否为它打上停心剂
让一切就停止在这一刻
一个永无法实现的愿望

-
这是一个不眠之夜
好长好长的夜

友谊

当我看到他打出的那一排字，

我的感触十分深。

我不清楚当年的我们到底是发生了什么事，

就，

有些争执。

好一段日子，

我们也因此失去了联络。

直到今天，

我也没弄清事实。

一直到今年年初，

友谊的缘分搭上了我们，

我们因此成了好朋友，

现在，

也已是知己了。

从我们成为知己以来，

似乎不曾发生争执。

我猜想，

一方面因为我们有着同样的思想，

怀着一样的信念，

秉持着同一个信仰。

朋友当中，

他也算是我百分百信任的一个人。

但愿，

我们友谊长久。

伟大的爱

我终于开口了。

-

你的心宛如刀割，

我的心也很痛。

-

三十分钟，

整整三十分钟，

给你倾诉的三十分钟。

-

时间不能保留一切，

不能承诺，

无法保证，

曾经走过，

不代表永恒。

-

那若隐若现的双人背影，

不复在了。

-

你说，

《预感》

会是永远的回忆。

所有的一切，

瞬间变得珍贵。

-

“水可以载舟，亦可以覆舟”

时间也一样。

-

见证了它的开始，

目睹了它的陨落。

现在，

只想静一静。

Praying Hard

Please,

stop smoking.
-
SERIOUSLY,
I don't like it.
-
May Lord lend me the power of sanctity,
To correct and recover your sanity,
From the graveyard of Devil,
And,
From the verminous Satan.
-
In Jesus name,
I pray.

Finally

Today I pass my driving examination.

-

I mean

I

PASS.

-

Fine, it's nothing to be so excited with.

I should actually get this license much earlier than today.

-

Anyway,

Who will be my first passenger?

感慨

晨曦的日出

在晨露的梳洗后

踩着同样的步伐

踏进学校的门槛

重复同样的节数

读者同一本书

看着一样的老师

铃声一响

赶进车子

望着路边一支往后退的树

午餐与补习是离不开的好搭档

晚餐有时得背叛

因为

这是生活

-

夜空与繁星交错的夜晚

我听着蟋蟀的长鸣

沉重的双眼皮拉上窗帘

跟着大自然的节奏而呼吸

听着徐风与叶子的音乐

引起澎湃血液的共鸣

听着心灵空虚的呼唤

一种感动溢上心头

好美的一幅画

超乎形容的境界

-

咻~

疾风的车子奔驰而过

划过寂静的夜晚

也划破了我的画

再次惊醒

回到了现实

原来

它们的距离好远

好远

“感慨”

似乎是最贴切的心情

然而

最真实的

莫过于那滑过脸颊

的颗颗泪珠

-

感慨的心情

好难捉摸

好难解释

SPM-sick

People usually describe those who are far away from their home and thinking of it as

"Homesick"

-

For me,

I am working hard like hell to achieve in SPM but yearn for a rest.

-

I describe myself as

"SPM-sick"

-

Let's start countdown when SPM will end.

By that time,

I will go as much insane as I can.

-

Shop like a wild,

Facebooking like a freak,

and,

Play like a kid.

Say No To "Dumpling"

To be frank, I really really have an eye-opening understanding towards "dumpling" today. You know why? Today is actually my driving examination and everything should be fine as scheduled. The first thing I am gonna do is driving up the hill and everything is going smooth as what I have thought. Then later comes to the side parking and three points turning, this is where the fucking stuff happened which turn me into a real full force bull. Let me make myself clear, I am actually having my New South Wales English Examination in school before I go for my driving examination. So logically I should dressed in school uniform right? You know what the fucking "dumpling" examiner told me?

• Kamu ni ponteng sekolah ke?
• Mengapa pakai baju sekolah?
• Kamu ponteng kah?
• Kalau ponteng saya tidak benarkan kamu menduduki ujian ini...
• Kalau ponteng saya hantar kamu balik ke sekolah...
• and bla and bla (sorry the "dumpling" speaks too fast and I cannot catch him anymore)

What the bloody shit you scolded me? It turns my mood badly. Another candidate after me is also a guy dressed in school uniform and he was not been scolded. Fine, I know both of you are of the same "dumpling" species.

What I am trying to say here is I am really gratify that I am not born as a "dumpling". In our history, Singapore had made a wise decision by not joining Malaysia. Let's see how wealthy and flourishing they are now. I sincerely hope that those "dumpling" know that the "hak perlindungan khas" for them is only just to spoil themselves. Furthermore, I am really sad to hear that "Malaysia Boleh!". This slogan makes me feel sympathy towards the country and sorry towards those "non-dumpling" who had worked so hard but yet cannot compete with those protected under the "hak perlindungan khas".

徐佳莹

好久好久，没有遇到让我如此钦佩的实力派创作歌手。
徐佳莹，
你的《身骑白马》与《明知故犯》，
是我继陈绮贞的《太阳》与《鱼》后，
2009年度听过最完美的音乐。
我期待，
期待来日会有更多让我振奋不已的创作陆续面世。
感谢，
邦耀让我认识了徐佳莹，
再次找到音乐的另一面藏宝图。

失落的日记

此时此刻，听着那久违的声音，述说着那永远属于我们的故事。

我总忘不了，

那甜美的笑容，

那独特的嗓子，

那永远迷人的双眸，

一个完美的搭档。

在一个全新的环境，

一个人须要独自面对冷暖的生活，

不是门简单的学问。

我很自责，

我很愧疚，

我无法化为太阳，永远给你温暖。

我无法成为守护天使，永远在你身旁呵护你。

我也无法化为双臂，永远给你依靠。

但，

在海岸的另一端，

总会有一群爱护你的朋友，

永远在背后支持你。

而，

我会是你心灵最大的支柱，

是你，

永远最好的朋友。

耶稣会代我好好保护你的，

阿门。

-

Ohana再次完成了续篇。

再次回归

两个星期的时间一转眼就过去了，明天将再次背上那深蓝色的背包，踏上学校的门槛，从回校园。把头往两个星期前望去，过得还算蛮充实、开心的。

最为难忘的莫过于我十七岁的生日，这是我首次与朋友们齐团聚庆祝，还蛮不错的。今年的生日非常特别，收到了三个不同的杯子，分别来自三群不同的朋友，第一个杯子来自我们班的“女人帮”、第二个杯子来自我的一名非常要好的朋友、第三个杯子来自我朋友群里一些活泼可爱的朋友们。三个杯子的到来不知道是不是种巧合，但是它们对我而言，在某种程度上对我来说都有着不同的深层意义，我满感动的。我甚至收到了来之纽西兰乌克兰的好友的来电，让我实属感动。这一次的聚会，有可能是我能与高中朋友最后一次的团聚庆生，所以我非常珍惜。

接着下来的几天，我几乎都在facebook的世界里畅游，有些许轻微的着迷。

在某某的一天，我忽然接到了远自纽西兰乌克兰的朋友的电话，在含糊的话语中，我可以清楚地听到她的感伤，想要回来与朋友团聚的无奈。在哽咽的对话中，虽然不是很清楚地听到她的咬字，但她的那一句“陈毅，我要回家，我真的很寂寞、很累，我很怀念以前所拥有的。我的心很痛，我很想和你们在一起。”让我无法忍着心中的感伤，在这电话里头，我也失声痛哭了。在彼此安慰后，句号为这令人感伤的对话画上休止符。远在马来西亚古晋的我，我会每天默默地为你祷告祈祷，或许我无法每天陪在你身边伴你渡过生活的每个节奏，但我不曾忘记你在我心里的地位，我会是你永远的朋友，只要你不嫌弃我永远会是你最好的倾诉者，一名肯听的听众。加油吧，奕婧，你行的！

昨天在学校里，我们中五的红新月执委们再次齐聚举办了急救练习。在等待的当儿，我们八卦似的坐在一起谈天。在经过近来的日子观察以来，我对朋友开始找回原来的自己感到有点欣慰。老实说，其实在他从吉打的生活营回来后还蛮恼人的。从原本稳重型的他转型到古灵精怪的性格让我有点接受不来。甚至还有些老师问我他发生了什么事？其实什么也没发生，只不过人家变得多话些罢了。相信在经过时间的考验下，原本的他也渐渐回来了。不在无厘头，也不再神经质。那天Han Nee说了句非常经典的话，“做回自己最好。”的确，现在的生活参杂了太多五花八门的染色，让我们非常容易受到影响，我们应保持最原貌的自己，因为那才是真正属于自己的特色，自己的特别。现在一切也即将恢复原貌了，感到的还是欣慰那一个心情。当然，我们的友谊也会是长久的，并经得起时间的考验与摧残。在未来的日子里，我们会继续相扶相持，一同渡过生活的苦与乐，并为理想而奋斗。邦耀，赶快找回自己吧，加油！

但愿主保佑。

A Melancholy Journal

I do not know what is actually happening on me. Today I kicked start with my 1st term exam with the Chemistry paper 1. I am actually well prepared for it, at least I think so. But when the time comes, my mind was in a blank. And no doubt, I had done a lot of silly mistakes.

Well, I can say I lost my self lately. I can hardly remember on what I have studied and come to the worst is I cannot even solve a simple question involving simplified mathematics calculations. Though I might be working hard this time, I might not score. I understand my situation well.

Was the sentence that I heard on the Mother's Day eve that curls up all my train of thought? Most probably this might be the main reason. Everyone has a limit towards an extreme misery, so am I. I think, I just need a good rest and have to find someone whom I can trust with to talk to. It is actually exam time now and I do not wish to interrupt any of my friends. So I might keep this for the next two weeks. I hope I can hold myself back and do not collapse.

Hedonism lost its colours in life

And is replaced by black and white

The blithe spirit lost its sight

And no longer be seen

Fervour towards laughter is curtailed

Melancholic melody is once be played

To take over your sunny aspect

And gaiety of spirit

Sacrifice

Looking at the stack of books that make up a hill
Sitting in front of the icy monitor trying to complete whatever you called it as assignment
You start to grumble around
You shout for liberty
And trying to grasp a breathe at the gap in between
When you understand what the true feeling of being fatiqued is
You lost your intention and notion as an optimistic one
This is how you may practise
But
This is strictly prohibited in my life
When you learn to sacrifice
It is actually an impetus to the shore
A glory shore after you conquer the ordeals that lined up all the way
The name of conqueror will appear on the hall of fame
From here
I deduce
“The highest level of learning is to sacrifice”

生活的态度

两个星期过去了，我的双手依然那么沉重，眼神的虚假度更提升到了个纯熟的境界。恍惚的依旧恍惚，该来的该面对的，不曾认识“迟到”这个词，我意识到这是一种态度——生活的态度。

最近换了个房间，面积显然小得多，从而缩小了我的活动范围。四肢没了活动的空间，内在的思考模式自然取代了她。在那封尘已旧的角落，让我重新有了个思考的空间。

我是个平凡的人，热爱着些古怪的事物，这有异于常人的爱好，一副颇有角度的脸型拼凑了完全属于我的我。喜爱收集标价，在琳琅满目的衣物前会热血沸腾，心跳加速。凭着我那薄弱的艺术气息，总爱用着数码工具绘制一些创作，不会很美，但至少我知道抄袭是憎恶的。望着那没有呼吸空间的衣橱，我对衣着的舒适感与搭配有着严格的要求。对于乐谱上的黑白豆芽一窍不通，但不代表我没有听音乐的权利。我对音乐有着非常高的敏感度，在慢歌前我甚至可以真情流露。简单的，只要歌词浅白易懂，有内涵，在感人的旋律中徘徊，我就可以听出耳油，听出眼泪。

光阴一久，见过的世面自然也广了。虽然看到的人心不及整体的冰山一角，但我总爱细细咀嚼，一直回味及消化，这是我给自己的机会，一个成长的机会。

看到并了解太多了，正面的与负面的荡然并存，这该算是一种互动的关系吧！物都有两极，一正一反。但如果负面占据了优势，是该有理由担心的。我见识了好多的虚假，有时我在怀疑他们的能耐，功底怎么那么好？用一颗真挚与倘然之心待人不是很好吗？我看过有人用那带毒的苹果去怎样讨好老师，更看过有人如何用老师来借刀杀人。有违，真是有违人之本性与良知。尽管如此，我依然有完全放松戒备的时候，在家人前，在要好的朋友前，我会坦开我与外界的那扇门，“不信任”完全是个否定词。人与人最原始的沟通模式就是需要信任，一旦信任成立，就是真实的，不虚假的。感谢上帝让我除了在家里获得精神的寄托，在走出家里的那扇门后依然荣获支持，感谢那些一直真诚以待的朋友。

在社交里，我秉持“乐于助”的态度，是我赖以生存的要求。只要是朋友开口的，能做到的我就会尽力。不曾要求丰厚的回报，纯粹只是依我的良知而行动，希望换来比物质更为长久、更有价值的友谊。我总在助人的过程中学习，努力填满满腹空虚的空间，有时甚至会有意外的收获。人，总要不断加速步伐，没有前进没有进步，待别人赶上后，你就退步了。

最近的生活似乎更具挑战性了，我总化现实为隐形。在嬉皮笑脸越是绽放的时候，其实就是我更努力掩饰更重的压力与心里更深的痛。最近养成了一种转移集中力的功夫，总得不断提升，才足以应付那些灰色地带的心情。近来总爱在外头待着，管她是在学校、补习中心或购物场所等，因为那时总会挂上一副厚厚的微笑面具。这副面具在到家后就会卸下，重新面对那残忍的现实世界。这时我会栽进书丛里，不是因为我相信“书中自有黄金屋”，而是一种自我麻痹的动作。

言尽至此。

想了好久，不懂要为这没重点的文章冠上什么题目。有感而发，我想到了一个简单的词汇——《生活的态度》。

珍惜

最近一位朋友的爸骤然离世

我惊觉原来人类是那么脆弱

说走就走

得知这噩耗的前一天

我在其部落格才晓得她爸进医院了

事隔一天

她爸就已...

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我当下是有股想哭的冲动

不是因为伤心

而是感到惋惜

在她的部落格里

我看到了她的无奈与无助

想帮助她的爸

但

怎么也使不上劲来

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妈的状况似乎没有好转的迹象

几乎天天都到医院报道

从她憔悴的双眸

我看到了病魔高举胜利的手势

我每日与高脚杯为伴

这是所谓的“愁”吗？

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我有些支架不住了

强忍的笑容还有多少明天？

微笑的面具几时会破裂？

我一个人受

一个人看透

在这被边缘的界限里

有多少人了解我？

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是时候珍惜了

不用多说

也不必再问

一切尽在不言中

天下间

有谁不曾失去？

但真正去体验并珍惜生活的又有几个？

这一秒所拥有的

不代表下一刻还是你的

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亲情、友谊、爱情

我重复了无数次

不曾厌烦

也不会腻

能珍惜的我都不会放过

亲情是我对家人的疼爱

友谊是我对朋友的坚持与爱戴

爱情是亲情与友谊的综合

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请不要让

“珍惜”

成为你失去的遗憾

成为吸取教训的代价

成为你永远都无法禰补的痛

趁你还没失去前

好好珍惜你身边的每一个人吧

家人、朋友、爱人

写给自己的歌 - 黄义达

从来就没有人问过我长大後到底要做些什么
放弃学业後如今什么都没有 没什么可以骄傲
现在写的每首歌对我来说希望可以被人接受
虽然很多人不了解我 可是至少我还有个梦
我一个人走 一个人看透 一个人受
烟都抽的寂寞 酒里头带着忧愁
我一个人走 一个人看透 一个人受
路我自己选择 我一个人走
我的家人从不知道我这几年究竟在做些什么
直到这几年我才告诉他们我正在追求一个梦
他们没有反对 他们只能在我背後默默支持我
害怕他们一天天的老去 我只想带给他们快乐
我一个人走 一个人看透 一个人受
烟都抽的寂寞 酒里头带着忧愁
我一个人走 一个人看透 一个人受
路我自己选择 我一个人走
我不想多说 随口说说 可能喝的多
我从来就没埋怨过 那是因为我有个幸福生活
虽然很多人不了解我 可是至少我还有个梦
我一个人走 一个人看透 一个人受
烟都抽的寂寞 酒里头带着忧愁
我一个人走 一个人看透 一个人受
路我自己选择 我一个人走
我一个人走
烟都抽的寂寞 酒里头带着忧愁
我一个人走
路我自己选择 我一个人走

听了这么多首歌，不曾听到歌声如此赤裸，如此真实的声音。它的词完全描写了我的心情，配上了感伤的旋律，实在太美了。最近一直都在听黄义达的歌，他写实法的创作法感动了我许多。

Mini Education Fair @ UNIMAS

Today should be a very nice Sunday when I can sleep til the sun is three poles high, but I had promised Miss Chai to join that what so ever education fair which spoilt my mood since early in the morning. Fine, as usual I received some "compliment" from my dad as he doesn't know where the place is. Lolz.

The first thing- lecture! I have nothing much to comment about for this lecture, a very usual lecture as the other lectures which I attended before. Due to that the topic today was something I were concerning about so I didn't doze off halfway during the talk. It lasted for an hour followed by another activity which let us to have a chance to look around and have some interactions among the undergraduate students here. I found out that some parts of the exhibition telling about fun facts engaged me the most. A passage written in spelling errors was pretty cool though I not really understand about the theory on how it works. It was a passage with all the vocabs spelled wrongly and it asked you to read through the passage. It stated that there are only 45 out of 100 people can read it which I don't think is very true because all my friends can read with ease.

Time flies. When the clock struck at 11.45am, we were given 2 hours for our lunch break. Well, me, Fabian and Melvin decided to enter the haunted house. But Melvin left the team without my notice. The haunted house appeared to be eerie when I first stepped into it because it was very dark inside as I couldn't even see my fingers. Well, I have some fun by "entertaining" those "ghosts" inside. First, I cheered to those who used hand phone to shine over their face. Later, I beat on a table back to a ghost who was doing that to me. It was quite fun but I were regretted that I came out in a prompt, I should take my time enjoying with those "ghosts". Pretty insane, haha.

Came to the practical session, me, Fabian, Boon Ping, Michelle, Chung Wui and others were assigned into Group C. We had a tour around the campus and I do find out that the facilities are not well supervised and maintained. The paint on the wall is shedding and most of the ceilings are broken as well. Luckily I don't see any leakage from the ceilings like what happened in the Parliament building. I don't think this situation is conducive for people like me to study here. Only a minor part of the students are Chinese and most of them are natives and Malays. What could I expect much from UNIMAS? A university ranking the top 50 in the world which then drop til the 220th position. There are reasons behind for everything that happened, I have no need to explain much as this might touch on some sensitive issues. By the way, specimens inside the laboratory were just enough to impress as I never seen these before. This is where I gained most of the scarce experience and knowledge which I could hardly obtained in my daily life.

Finally, came to the end of the fair. Fabian represented our school to say a few words. A short yet strong points made up his speech. I went off sharp after the closing ceremony as my dad was waiting me outside. 20 minutes later, I was sitting down in front of my lappie writing this post. It is indeed a long one. I have to clarify that what a wrong mindset I had in the beginning of the day, this fair was actually a very beneficial one for me.

陈绮贞

好久好久没好好欣赏这么一位有品的歌手了。是的，她是陈绮贞。独特的脸蛋儿里透露出她的深藏的气质，然而最为我津津乐道莫过于她那非凡的创作天才。出道的这些年里，所发行的专辑都是极品之作，我爱死了。睽违了三年，陈绮贞2009第５张专辑——太阳。这张专辑采用了简单优美的旋律，配上了木吉他的伴奏给成熟的作品被赋予完整的生命。我十分喜欢《鱼》、《太阳》与《狂恋》这３首歌。无法用言语表达这些歌曲的美，因为它已远远超乎了形容词所能形容的。陈绮贞充满感情的声音自由伸展、情绪完整并展现最真诚的时刻，这是一位优秀的歌手对音乐的坚持与态度。

有时间的朋友们，这里可下载
《太阳》　　　
《鱼》

《狂恋》

好好欣赏吧！

需要与想要

好不容易渡过了两个星期的考试，虽然只是简单的小考，我却看得非常重，想必我对学业的要求变得严格了吧。躺在床上，往窗外望去，原来天空是那么蔚蓝，如清水般清澈。原本是想入个短眠，但脑子里紧绷的神经线却丝毫不松懈下来，有点辛苦，头开始痛了。十五分钟过去了，睡意随着时间的消逝而冲淡了。简考的结束印证了中考与高中考试的跫音近了。脑子里出现的画面越来越模糊，浮现的尽是些不快乐的事情，想着想着，我对我需要与想要的，终于弄清了方向。

起身，坐下，提笔，开始写了。

好久好久没好好写一篇文章了。我把这两年来所作所为、所见所闻，好好地反省并作了个简结。今天的思想中心围绕的是在“需要与想要”这个主题上。生活基本上在这两个词里形成了互动。“需要”指的是延续生命所需的必要元素；“想要”是一种生活的态度，在意的并不是必要的元素，而是要让生命过得更好，有者甚至用其为炫耀的一种后备或武器。

简单的拿个例子来说，我们每日三餐，基本的生活起居——衣、食、住、行，都是一种需要。是的，这都是身躯的满足，而并非心灵上的慰籍。非常感谢上帝让我生于这小康之家，生于斯，长于斯，所得到的远远超乎我所需要的。我是该满足了。但是，接二连三发生的事情一直在考验我心灵上的需要。现实社会仓促的步伐由不得我，每日与家人相伴的时间随着这趋势渐渐缩短了。不时拿起往年的相簿翻看着，想起童年与父母百分百相附的时刻，心里萌起了一股寒意。今时不同往日，与家人相伴的时候不再像以前那么多了。早上在学校；下午在空无一人的房子里；晚上在补习中心，这就是生活。与家人见面的时间，屈指一数，也只不过在车上或在饭桌上那短短的一、两个小时，这时间对我来说实在太少。

再者，母亲的生理状况不佳，一度休假几天没去上班。看着她那消瘦的身子，我的心情总是沉到谷底，一振不起。有时想起了不禁号啕大哭，深怕天公不作美。然而，忙碌的课业也无法让我有多余的时间伴在她身旁，聆听着她那耐人寻味的故事，并将心事吐之于她，轻松地聊个天。即使有空暇之余，妈大多也在床上歇息着。有时我按奈不住内心的悲动，一个人独自躲到房里，试着将眼泪往肚里吞，听听陈绮贞的歌，试着将自己与音符融为一体，喝着被稀释的红酒，试着将烦恼给忘却。

执着，太执着。

曾经，我执着于旁人的眼观、执着于我的中心思想、执着于太多太多的事情，现在我敞开了双手，才发现原来海洋那么辽阔，天空那么无际。高中初中一时，我曾与家里闹别扭，放弃了所有的东西，费尽了精神，一心一意为某个团体付出，不畏劳苦，求得只是那么一职。但是幸运女神从未向我微笑过，一度的失望曾让我想离开。最后，我还是不情愿将我付出的一切废于一旦，选择留了下来。是的，我错过太多太多学习的机会——无法参与国际性的露营、无法带领操步的团队去征赛、无法作主决定任何一件事情等。。。同时，基于我的执着，我放弃了其它的社团，到头来白忙一场。我那时承受的压力，不只是我个人的因素，家人也曾一度阻止我参与校内任何的活动，可说是禁足。崩溃到了极点，一度想放弃生命。那一念之差，曾狂啃止痛药，好让自己的头痛不再那么痛苦。庆幸的，被妈及时发现并阻止，防止悲剧的酿成。我所想要的只不过是个藉口，给自己磨练的机会其实在远方正等着我去挑战。

我感谢并庆幸所有一直在我身旁陪我走过的朋友们。没有你们一路上的支持与鼓励，我也没有机会在此与你们分享这则文章。“朋友”在我人生词典里永远是最重要的两个字。虽然曾经数落别人，但我却从不背叛友谊。这是我一直感到骄傲的。

我两年里，真的锐变了。从思想到行动，都有所成长。我好比一只蜗牛，在跑道上慢慢向前摸索并前进，试着抵达那看似永无尽头的终点。不畏怕粗糙的路面，不惧怕火红的太阳与疾风，背负着重大的躯壳前进，并相信曙光在不远处。同样的，我也背负着理想，在曲折的路上突破重围，抵达幻想国度的彼岸。

“需要与想要”，自己好好衡量吧，有一天，你会晓得其中的奥妙并在自己的学习国度里迈出一大步。

感谢主。

累.垮

望着天空

看不到曾经的蔚蓝

望着镜子

疲惫的纹路若隐若现

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当笑话不再诙谐

当太阳不再炽热

当彩虹不再绚丽

黑与白

占据了这个空间

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好重

肩膀，辛苦了

好乱

思绪，错乱了

好痛

心理，淌血了

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我听到了她们的呻吟

但却麻木了

无法改变

这残忍的事实

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正在摸索

累、垮与坚强

的平衡感

用力拼凑着

被打乱的拼图

一篇原本属于我美丽的故事

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我不是输了

只是累了

累得垮

垮得彻底

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我秉持着的信仰

坚强

快要破功了

Cherish

I grabbed this picture from Roti Canai's blog. It is indeed a meaningful one, I uploaded it here to share it with all my friends. Do cherish people around you and do not let them to slip by your side. Fill up the emptiness of your life with the gift from Lord and hold it tightly in your palm. Life is not everlasting, appreciate what you have now and do not ask more for your greediness. Learn to love and to be loved. Forget everything related to hatred and hate no people. Life can be easy or difficult, it all depends on how you interpret it. With the power of Lord, surpass all the obstacles and perplexities that are approaching you. Be strong, and that is the only solution.

Strong, the only solution

Today I went to attend the car driving bengkel together with Dawson, Eleen, Winnie, Aelred and Aaron. This was indeed a boring one but slightly better than the previous lecture because it lasted for 3 hours only. I met Vivian, Kathleen and Samantha there. They were taking their driving law lecture as well. We had our lunch at the food bazaar in Spring. Soon, my dad came and picked me up home. Wee told me that mum went to Toa Pek Kong this morning after dropping me off. I could felt the cadence of my entire body cells to tune down suddenly after listening to what Wee had said. Half an hour ago, my mum came into my room and sitting down on my bed. I could felt the disquieting ambiance to besiege me, it was scary. The dreadful silence was broke when my mum started to talk "I'm very tired, I'm scared that if I can't .........." Well, I am not daring enough to write out what she said in the last part of her sentence. I found myself in a stupefied state for sometime. By the time I regained to my full conscious, my mum had left the room. I texted Fabian after this and he asked me to accompany her more often than usual. Tonight, I am so much depressed. It is going to be a sleepless and endless night for me.

A Banquet

Today my dad was prompted by a sudden impulse to pamper the whole family with a marvellous banquet at the Riverside. Wow, that sounds so much seductive to me. What more the theme of the day was Japanese Cuisine! Hoho, I was getting so much excited when the imposing grand sight of the sushi dish(es) projected into both my eyes. I could not resist anymore. I took a plate of udon to fill up my grumbling stomach before I went into the real dinner. While I was intoxicating in this sumptuous Japanese Cuisine, my aunt and cousins arrived at the doorstep. My aunt was still not in a very sanguine complexion. Who can really actually fully recover from losing a person who have a tie of blood to you, what more if he or she is your husband or wife? Aunt, please restrain the grief and to accept the change, I know you can. Recently, I got to pray hard to Lord cause I don't want the sorrow chapter to happen on me in an alternate way. You should get what I mean if you understand me well.

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Always with Lord,

Jack_ty

Bookstore or Storeroom?

This afternoon while waiting for my youngest brother, my father brought me to Smart Bookshop. The first impression while I stepped in my first pace was that is this a bookstore or storeroom. It had been few months ago since I made my last visit here. The arrangement of books is in a big mess! Walao-A, lolz. Can you imagine a bookstore with books scattering all over the place and you will suddenly step on a book without your conscious while walking around! You know, I had accidentally stepped on at least 3 books. (Just hope that I will not become any stupid by doing that) I will take a snapshot if I was with a camera! Never mind, I remembered I was having my hard time scouting for the books I want, this really drove me nuts, nuts and MORE NUTS! First, you had to been through series of carpet-like searching to get your desire publisher. When you found it, you had to look into the subject(s) you want. The worst part was that when you approached the workers, they will only simply reply you "Buku ini tak ada stok lagi, mungkin kamu boleh pergi popular cari buku itu..." or "Kamu tunggu sekejap, saya check di komputer dulu.." then you will no longer hear his/her voice until you started to look for him/her again. Is this the right attitude a worker should reflect? Lolz, after spending one and a half hour in this terrible and horrible bookshop, I managed to get some books which I missed it last two days when I was at Popular.

Poor, poor, poor...
What a poor bookshop.

爱的拥抱

昨天

我从爸哽咽的话语中

得知了这个噩耗

无声无息的

牵动了我全身的神经线

心情顿时跌到了谷底

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我缩短在网上流连的时间

预留了个空间给你

让我可靠近凝视着你的脸蛋儿

好好抚摸你那被岁月摧残的青春

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这是个极大的考验

我必须矜持着我原有的意念

背负着伟大的理想

再次通过重重关卡

远远超越“毅”力所能到达的境界

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在神的引领下

我破蛹而出

在黑暗的另一端

寻找另一片曙光

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在泪水中忐克不安的踌躇

将化为另一股

无穷的动力

把我推向了勇敢的尽头

迈出了腾空的一大步

画下美丽的历史

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妈

我想再次投入你的怀抱

感受你那久违的温暖

妈

我爱你

Not in Mood

Today you told me

To be prepared

In case if any sad tragedy happen

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I asked myself why?

Why her?

I can hardly accept the fact

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This joke is too big for me

I don't think I will be able to hold back

I will sacrifice anything for you

But with the condition

You cannot leave us behind ok?

I need you

Your love

Your cares

Your smile

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I love you

I penetrate through the Dimensions

Feeling weary looking at my previous header image

That is the reason why I edited another picture

"I penetrate through the Dimensions"

According to the Oxford dictionary

"Dimension" means-

measurement of any sort (breadth, length, thickness, height etceteras)

I take this phase as the key subject of my whole idea

"I penetrate through the Dimensions"

To be firmly convinced in these words

I promised myself not to give up easily

No matter how difficult and arduous the perplexity is going to be

I will never let you shatter my adamant will

I will go beyond all these

And finally land on the opposite shore

Where the aureola of victory will shine on top of me

Which last forever

To be committed and endeavoured

Another hard day for me. I was suffocating by the non-stop coughing just now. Sometimes I couldn't even take in a single breathe. I am wondering if I will leave my outer form behind and depart from this world in a sudden. No, I should never say that, I am only sixteen man! I still have lots and lots of ambitions to be completed and achieved. I can say my condition is right very chronic and a medical supervision is needed immediately. When the j-ass were having their command exam this afternoon, I coughed until I almost got my lungs to spew out from my mouth. This feeling is like when your lungs are being pierced through by thousands of needles making you can hardly grab for any single breathe. The medicine which I bought few days ago from the pharmacy doesn't show any aid to save me from this hell like chasm. If I can't do anything to get this thing cure, I would rather choose to be like what the Maldives people have done in connection to the global warming. The Maldives PM said that "If we cannot stop the global warming, then we have to spend some of our exchequer to buy land from the adjacent nations before the water submerge our place..." Well I shouldn't be so pessimism, on the other hand I should contribute something to my family, friends, school, community and nation. I will not let any single chance which I can bring glory and pride to my family, friends, school, community and nation to slip by as long as I am still be able to hold spoon and fork with both my hands!

Being so e-m-o tonight. I think that is probably enough for me.

A new hair cut

This afternoon I went for a haircut. No doubt, it looks so stupid for me. I still have about 8-9 months to keep my hair short to the length which is stated in the school rules. Never mind, have to bear with it. Anyways, do I look like a primary school nerd with this hair cut?

一滴有自己声音的水

这两天里，我在闲暇之余我都陶醉于《一滴有自己声音的水》里，穿梭在文字的优美当中。或许吧，曾经年少轻狂、叛逆的我是那么无知、天真。那天在整理书橱时，我意外发现了《一滴有自己声音的水》，赫然察觉原来我存有这么一本值得珍藏的书，一切切的感动、激励都萦绕在这本书的每一粒方块字，赋予了它无穷的生命力。

夕阳的景色永远是最美丽的，它犹如一盘被调色师傅打翻的调色盘，但却怎么也收不回来。各种绚丽夺目的色彩，渲染了这片蔚蓝的天空，实属美丽。然而最美丽的时刻永远是最短暂的，每当我在这幅画令我叹为观止的巨画下再一次惊叹之际，它却悄悄地离去了。我无法给于预言，更不晓得未来会发生的事，就因为如此，我一直抓紧每一个美丽、欢乐的时刻。在我内心深处，我非常清楚了解，遗憾是难免的。

在黑暗的夜晚，我巧妙地避开了繁忙的车拢与奔波的生活，徘徊在那沉淀已久的记忆里。在皎洁的月光下，独自享受大地沉睡后的“静”。我坐在那可滚动的塑制椅子上，坐上摆放的尽是些简单的摆设。一盏充电式的桌灯、几本陪伴我在考场上并肩作战的好友和几支的原子笔。我静静地坐在椅子上，原子笔在我熟练的腕力下快速在纸张上飞舞，记下的每一笔每一画，都是我由衷的宣泄，把内心的纳闷尽吐在文字里，让它从我错乱的思绪当中给挪出来。

天下的父母，有哪一位曾向自己的儿女要求过什么？他们的付出是无私的，伟大的。在有一天，当我们准备张翅飞翔走进着五花八门的社会时，我们依靠的，会是另一种情—友情。有些时候，在某种程度上友情扮演的角色比亲情来得重要。我对生命的热忱，曾是朋友给于的动力。在经历了多场友情赛后，挫折让我狭隘的思想变得辽阔，我成熟了不少。

我喜爱採撷闹中之静，在静里慢慢享受着感人的旋律在我耳怀翩翩起舞，细细品味那一直萦绕在周围的感动。曾何几时，音乐是我人生不可缺少的一部分。虽然我不会作词作曲，不晓得唱歌，更不认识乐谱上一排排的豆芽。在我无法适应白天的繁忙与黑夜的寂静的这极度偏差里，美妙的乐曲常是慰籍我心灵的良药。一首简单的慢歌，优美的歌词在简单的旋律里畅行无阻地编织成一曲又一曲无与伦比的创作。我忘我地在这奇妙的音乐世界里探索，得到了安慰，更获得了无价的灵感泉源。

《一滴有自己声音的水》让我用了个全新的角度诠释人生的哲学，生活的意义。是的，每一个人都需不断地充实自己，而不是一直在原地打转，没有进步就相等于退步。

每一个人都有属于自己声音的一滴水，好好去发掘吧！好好享受人生，在人生的道路上，你会再次体验到更多的美好。在享受的同时，珍惜你所拥有的一切—亲情、友情和爱情。无私奉献的亲情、人生旅途上的友情和伟大的爱情，都是上天赐予我们最珍贵的收藏品。

Happy Valentine Day

Today is Valentine Day

No choice I have to spoil your image by uploading this picture

I don't think you would mind

Because your hair is worse than this picture

Less nonsense

Let's get started

First

I would like to say

"Happy Valentine Day!!!"

Second

still the same as what I sent you this morning

"No matter how broom or mop your hair is, I will always love you!"

For me

Everyday is our valentine day

But today

Is a very very special valentine day

So date you out for a movie and dinner

With lots of Love

Jack_ty

Sick

Today when I woke up

I felt something wrong with my voice

My voice is husky

I have no choice

I am sick

Don't feel like getting this weak condition

Later

I start to cough

Coughing is the most vulnerable part of my health

I want to recover

You know

I scare the hidden ailment to burst out again

No

I don't want to become breathless

And

Gasping desperately for fresh air

Please

Lord

I need to stay in green

I flunked badly

A train of bullets starts to shoot at me like I had committed an extremely heinous offence and have to be executed right now. Yeah, I meant it, RIGHT NOW!!!

1st bullet, "Why you need to take my SLR to go for taking picture? Did you spoil your Samsung camera?" I simply replied "No dad, the Samsung camera is just running low on battery..." "Well, later you show me your camera and let me check if it is really SPOILT!" He shouted at me. I know I have to bear with it, the reason why I brought the SLR there is very simple, I just want to take some nice shots so that I can upload some quality photos to the KHSRC blogspot. I never make any bad intention to arouse in my act.

2nd shot "You know I am TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED on you! I never see you doing any revision. Every time when I see you, you're facing in front of computer. Do you know that you're going to sit for SPM?" This time I chose to remain silent. I don't want to contradict my dad, I know I have been hurting him so far. Sometimes, I just couldn't get it, couldn't get what my dad actually wants. I'm trying hard everyday to revise and always ensure that I am one step ahead of other candidates.

Last bullet "You're spending much as if I am a millionaire. You bought lots of tops and bottoms this year which cost me about thousand. At home, you use the best toiletries and cosmetic products, in school you use the best stationery and on apparel, you used to wear the most branded one. Can't you just be a bit more frugal?" Lolz, this time I confessed I am wrong. My dear dad, I am actually trying to be economical in my spending recently. I stop buying imported and branded stuff such as SHAPES biscuit, PILOT pen and so on. Dad, can't you see all the the changes and hard work I had been made?

I just wanna say sorry, dad. As an eldest, I should set a good example for Wee and Khai, but I failed to do so. Most of the time I just couldn't get what you actually aspect from me. I did my very best to obtain good result in school and doing domestic chores everyday. I thought I had contributed something to this house and lighten your burden, but it doesn't seems to be like that.
Dear Lord, do guide me what should I do. I don't want my dad to worry me anymore. I have grown up, getting mature and not longer a rebellions temperament kid. I know I had flunked badly as being a good son.

Your dearest son,

ty_Jack